Anxiety

WEIGHT LOSS

Hey guys. 

I'm a bit down today, not sure why but that's just the way it is. And so I thought of Wattpad and this story and yeah, why not take some time to write for you guys. 

I'm two days from a weigh-in. I've been trying to lose weight pretty much all month, but I've been more focused the last 20 days than I was the 10 first. My goal is to be down 5 kgs but I think I will be down 2. I'm alright with 2 kgs to be honest, I feel better and I look better so it really doesn't matter too much what the scale says. 

Also I've been seeing a friend, a guy, he spent the night and I don't feel like spending time with him like that anymore. He's a nice guy, I feel like shit, but I want all of my focus to be on MYSELF. Yes: me, myself and I. My friends and family too, of course, but if a guy pops up into my life then that can happen whenever, just not now. Well, I wouldn't mind if I got to know someone randomly, it's just that I'm not ready to put in effort to get to know someone and I just don't feel like dating at all. 

I'm graduating very soon and school is very stressful, but I'm trying to manage. My biggest goal right now is to stay in school, as in going to all of my classes. I just need to pass. 

As I mentioned I feel kind of down today. I'm not sure why but I guess it's normal to be a little low at times. I haven't been very anxious or sad in a while so it's alright, I can be sad tonight. I'll just end up going to bed earlier = a less tired version of me. 

Tomorrow's exciting too!  It's Saturday, I have a few things planned and sometimes it's good to know that you're not going to be completely on your own for the weekend. I'll just try to get a workout done in there too, it's just that the gym closes so early nowadays and I find myself going there less often because my time schedule isn't letting me :( 

I'm considering going twice a day for a week now in February to kind of get myself started again. It's just that I'm not a morning person whatsoever and it's still dark out and I'm lazy so :/ Probably not going to happen. But hey, I'm graduating in June and if I've lost 5 kgs this month I can keep going as I've planned, and if I haven't I'll just either continue or fix things up with my plan. To be honest I don't think I can do much more than I am doing right now, maybe just some small fixes. Let's just see what the scale says on Monday morning and then we'll see what to do :) 

Hope your Friday's good, and if not, go make a smoothie or something. They're filling and good for you. Love you all, don't forget to message me if you feel like shit or just need someone to vent to