Anxiety

Let go

How do you know when it's time to let go?

When is the time to leave a relationship behind, and start focusing on your own life? 

Is it when he points out he doesn't care for the 100th time and it finally gets through your head?

Or is it when the first thing he does after dinner is turning his back on you and falling asleep by himself?

I don't care anymore. I don't care about the fact that we haven't seen each other in a while now. I know couples that would die to spend every single minute of the day together, and so they do their best to get to each other. You always say how you miss me and that something's missing when I'm not around. Fun thing you don't even try to get me to you. 

You don't actually care.

On Valentines Day I asked you out to dinner, because you didn't even know what date Febuary 14th was. You didn't get me anything in the first place. That made me feel like crap. Like your time was too precious to go to the store and get me some chocolate or whatever. I didn't actually care about not getting anything, but you told me so many times before that you weren't even going to try. That's what made me sad. 

You handed me a box of chocolate wrapped in a plastic bag from the local supermarket along with these words: "They probably taste like crap". 

I wish you genuinely wanted to spend every minute of the day with me. I wish you tried your hardest to make that happen, like I used to do. I wish you spent five extra minutes at the store just because you know how happy that would make me. But you didn't. 

We haven't seen each other since and you haven't even asked when we're going to see each other again. So why should I be the one to always ask? 

I don't care anymore. But it sucks that I'm here, writing, thinking about how I should end things with you. What do I say? 

And am I going to handle my life without you at all?