Anxiety

January 20

It's day 20 of January. Day 20 of 2015.

20 days I haven't cried in.
I've been truly happy.

I've found old friends of mine and I've found new ones.

I go to sleep with a smile on my face, I wake up knowing that today is a new day and today I get to make my own decisions.

Last year I would curl up in a ball and drown in my own tears. I would ask myself what the meaning of life was and I wanted to die.

Now I'm excited for the future.

I don't starve myself anymore. I eat like any other person would, sometimes more, sometimes less.

I'm about to fall in love with a beautiful boys who's also one of my best friends.

When I'm in crowded places I freak out a little and when I fight with my parents I almost cry.

School makes me anxious sometimes, but I manage to get through it.

Things got better, I guess. And I believe things always get better, at least at one point in your life.

Hang in there.