Twisted tale of Negan

habits.

My eyes flutter open, and I wake up wrapped in negans arms. It's morning, and I realize we have a big day ahead of us.

I carefully unwrap myself and walk over to my clothes when Meagan voice startles me.

"Mornin" he states yawning.

"Good morning, Negan."

I continue looking through my bags when I stumble across a photograph of Katherine, on her fourth birthday. Her toothy smile warmed my heart and I couldn't help but to smile back at the picture, I held it to my heart and smiled from ear to ear. What I wouldn't give just to hear her sweet innocent voice again, or to hold her small body to mine when she had bad dreams.. What I wouldnt give, to be a mom again.

Negan notices me and asks what I was doing.

I sigh out and set the picture down " I miss it Negan"

"Miss wha-"

"Being a mom." I state blankly, I grab my clothes and start changing, I slip into jeans and a black v-neck, I slip on my hoodie to go over it. Negan has gotten up and is getting dressed too.

"I miss being a dad too." He grumbles.

Talking about Katherine now is so touchy, mainly because Negan and I don't even know what to do.. Should we be happy? Should we cry our eyes out that she is gone and we didn't even get the chance to say goodbye?

I walk up to him and wrap my arms around his neck so he looks down at me "maybe again someday.." I kiss his lips and start to walk away.

"It's not her though."

I ignore the comment because I was o. The verge of tears.

I of course try and stay positive "well, we certainly can't just replace her.."

He nods and slings lucille over his shoulder.

I look over to him who smiles slightly at me "Gonna go check on the prisoners" he comes closer and places a kiss on my forehead.

"Oh let me go with.."

He shrugged and out of the door we went. Many of his men were already up and about doing their usual morning jobs, Nathan is on guard of the 'prisoners' as Negan says.

I walk into the little building first to see all of these people's eyes druft away from mine, i frown slightly and look over to Daryl who seems to want to say something, but can't.

Just then rick steps in "Thanks for the help back there."

"I did everything i could." i state trying to defend myself.

Just then the short haired lady replies "you took my husbands life! I'm pregnant! My child will never get to meet her father, thanks to you.."

I tear up a bit, but before i could say anything there's a large hand on my lower back, i look over to see Negan smiling away.

"Oh come on guys, it was just a little Asian is it really that disappointing?"

No one dared to speak, hell not even me.

Negan walks along the wall and looks down at them "what? Cat got yalls tongue?"

Maggie looked away out of fear for her own life, i walk over to her and kneel down so we are eye to eye.

"Maggie, listen. You can not blame me for the actions of my.. Husband. If there is anything you need.. Please feel free to ask me"

She looked shocked at me, she started rocking back and fourth and shook her head at me.

Rick spoke for her "she needs food. Okay? We all do"

I look over to see Rick huddled with Carl.

"Anything you wish" i stated.

I look over to Negan who has a disgusted look on his face.

I leave the prison and walk to the warehouse when I'm stopped by Daniel

"Lucy wait.." he grabbed my arm which made me flinch.

"What the hell do you want daniel?" i shout.

"I just wanna apologize for.. Every-"

I cut him off "you're fucking lucky i didn't chop your body open and feed you to the walkers ALIVE" i brush passed him and into the house.

I make my way to the kitchen and grabbed a bin of apples.

I make my way back quickly to see Negan harassing Rick "did you have Lucy moaning loud? Hell did she even moan? I bet you suck huh? Not a real man now?"

"Negan enough" i growled.

I walked around and handed each one a apple.

I look at them and nod.

Negan storms out of the warehouse.

"Better go calm down your lover boy" Daryl growls bitting into the apple "before he comes back in and goes ape shit on us"

"Good idea.. I just need you guys to know that even though you're Negans enemy, you are not mine.. He does not control my every move.. I'm here if you guys need anything. I'm gonna check in later."

And with that i walked away.

I chased after Negan, but he wouldn't stop walking to the warehouse.

I followed him all the way up and into our room.

He sets down Lucille and pushes me up against the wall.

"You don't speak to them at all. You hear me?" he says through gritted teeth.

I stay quite, i am shaking in my skin.

He pulls out his knife and holds it against my throat "i believe i asked you a question"

I gulp causes my neck to slightly push against the blade. "Yes.."

"Yes what?"

"Yes sir.. Ill stay away from them"

He lets me down and I'm gulping for air. He smooths his clothes out and looks to me "fix your hair its a damn mess"

And with that he leaves the room.