Twisted tale of Negan

Not me

i was upset, why did Rick just shoo me off like that? Anyways, I can't think about that right now. He is right, I need to be there for Negan, if anyone can comfort him right now, it'd be me.

I eyed Rick as I turned off, he didn't seemed fazed at all.

"Hey Negan? Wait up!" I yelled, trying to catch up with him.

He stopped and turned to me, he didn't look too good, but hell I know I didn't either.

I caught up to him, and threw my arm around his torso, as we walked in silence back to the house.

I opened the creaky door, and stepped in. It looked completely different from what I remembered, the walls were painted a different color, the mess was picked up, it looked very very nice.

Lightening shot from outside, causing me to jump a little, as I walked into the home, I gestured for Negan to come in, in which he did I shut the door behind him, and followed him to the sofa.

He plopped down face first into a pillow, laying down taking up the whole couch.

I sighed and sat down on floor in front of him.

It was silent for awhile, nothing but the storm filled the air.

I glanced over at a window, and noticed it was pouring down rain. Which is good, it'll slow down the walkers, and also, it'll give us a break for tonight, but I know as soon as the storm is over with, Rick will have people on watch on the guard tower.

I sighed at the thought, mainly because I have duty tonight, sadly. Although, I'm sure Rick won't make me go, he might be the one going tonight. 

Just then I hear Negan start whimpering, my head snaps his direction and he is still having his face shoved into the pillow, crying.

I instantly felt guilty, I've gotta look at this from his shoes, his family just ditched him.. I just.. I just left him. I took Katherine, and deprived him of seeing her, and now she's gone.

"I... I'm sorry Negan" I say, standing up slowly and approaching him. I rubbed his back softly "I don't know what to say to make this better for us..  But please just know that I'm sorry.. I'm sorry for everything Ive put you through, and I'm sorry that our little girl is gone.. If I could bring her back I would"

His cries only got louder, and I decided I would calm him down by reminding him of our past

"Hey.. You remember our wedding night?" I questioned in a soft tone.

Negan stopped, and slowly looked up at me, curling into a ball he sniffles and smiled "what parts?"

I laughed and sat at his feet "well, you remember how we were just so in the mood we tried fucking in the bathroom?" I asked.

He laughed and sat up completely "And we would have gotten away with it! If it weren't for your damn dress"

I laughed too "Yeah, that dress was a bit exaggerated.. I guess it didn't help that we both were shitfaced, Thanks to the open bar"

Negan chuckles

Silence fell, and the mood of the room changed, it went from sad... To okay.

"You looked absolutely beautiful in that big ole dress though... I can still picture it" he looked to me and smiled.

I looked down trying to contain my blushes.

He continued "it was like.. I could have starred at you forever in that dress, you were just breathtaking. I was so damn nervous just by looking at how fucking stunning you are. When it was time to put the ring on well... You know, I put it on the wrong finger."

I looked over at him, and he was just smiling ear to ear.
in this moment, call it whatever you'd like. But I realized I still loved this man.

I grabbed his hand and held it. His smile faded and he looked down at our hands

"What are you-"

I quickly cut him off "Don't ruin this for me"

I cuddled up next to him, as him and I watched it pour down rain. I wast he'd the lightening dance in the sky, and for some reason I got tired.

I looked up at Negan who was looking down at me
"Hey, I know that look, someones sleepy" he said softly.

I smiled weakly "Little bit." I rest my head on his shoulder and continue to watch it storm.

Before I knew it, Negan had stood up and picked me up bridal style
"Up we go" he out me over his shoulder, and he carried me up the stairs.
"Where are we going?" I asked.

He chuckled "you're sleepy, and I don't think you are gonna be goin home anytime soon."

We make it to the bedroom and he lays me down gently on the bed. He pulls the covers over me, and is smiling the whole time.

I'm smiling up at him, he tucks me in and looks down at me
"You're still adorable, even when you're sleepy" he stated.

There was a moment where him and I were just starring at each other. We both roughly went in for a kiss.

His body hovered over me he as our tongues collided together, I moaned softly into the kiss as he gained dominance.

I was so into this, I needed this. Him and I needed closure, and this is the best way I know how.

Things got intimate, clothes were coming off, and right before he was about to completely dominate me, he stops

"Lucy, I can't do this"

He moves from in between my legs and goes to the bathroom, I hear him turn on the shower.

I instantly regret what I did.

I stood up and slid back on my jeans, and put back on my bra, I walked into the bathroom to see Negan had already stepped into the walkin shower.

"Negan did.. Did I do something wrong?" I questioned.

He ignored me and continued showering

"Negan ple-"

"This isn't right! You have Rick. YOU made that decision. Not me! Don't you dare pin that on me.." His voice cracked at the end. "Just leave Lucy"