Twisted tale of Negan

It's time

Negan pov
Rick smiled at me "no, I'm not going to even give you that satisfaction. I want you to live with the fact that you're a disgusting human being" he said threw gritted teeth.

I sighed out "Rick.. I need to see her. I need to see my wife.. I won't try anything. I just need to see her, we just lost our baby man.." I said trying to reason with him.

Rick shook his head "see how do I not know you're going to go up there and kill her. She can't even defend herself."

"That's my wife man.. Please. I don't have anything to hurt her with I just want to talk to her."

Rick tilted his head he opened the little gate "I wouldn't try anything" he said sternly.

Lucy pov

I woke up again, to see its about noon. I slept a good long while, and honestly laying here in this bed, right before I fell asleep I thought long and hard about Negan and I. Maybe it is time to call our long, and dysfunctional relationship quits.

I mean do I really want to live forever this way? Being absolutely terrified of the man I'm with? But then again Negan never intended to hurt me... Or to make me feel this way. Right?

Maybe he truly is insane? The first time he ever hit me he wanted help..

Just then there was a knock on the door.

"Come in!"

The door opened and there stood Negan, my heart pounded faster in my chest, it felt like i was going to explode. I was terrified, I wanted to scream out for help. But I didn't.

"Please just go away, I can't even look at you right now" I said.

"I can't look at me either.. Lucy we need to talk."

I crossed my arms. "You have exactly a minute. I don't need to hear your dumb ass excuse for... For wanting to kill me last night!" I spat.

"I didn't want to.. Baby listen to me, you know..I'm.. Crazy." He said sincerely he comes up to the bed and kneeled down next to me, he tried to grab my hand but I snatched it away "but.. I do it because,  let's face it luc, I'd be completely lost without you.. You're my home. You're my rock, you're my soulmate"

He went on and on about how much I meant to him

"Negan! Enough, if any of this was true.. You wouldn't do this to me. Make me feel this way. You made me hate myself for the longest, you made me think I deserved to feel this way. I deserved to get hit. And no one does! For years you have manipulated me to think that this is what a happy marriage is. I stood by you Negan, I supported you..." I started crying.

He held my hand "Lucy we can fix this. We can fix us baby"

"Why? So you can go back to hitting me? To making me feel like shit! Let's face it Negan there's nothing left for us."

"What... What about Katherine?" He asked choking up a bit.

I looked away from him trying my best not to break down "she'll understand. Now please.. Go away"

Negan took a shaky breath out and stood up straight, he didn't cause a scene, he didn't argue, he simply left. And honestly that's all I needed. I needed him to understand what he is doing wasn't okay. Nor will it ever be. It's time to move on finally. I can't keep living in fear of Negan. I've given him too many chances, too many opportunitys to change.

I laid there and took a big breath in, I threw my legs across the bed and stood up slowly, I steadied myself, and before I knew it I was walking. Sure it was little baby steps, that were very unstable. But I was up and walking. I'm sure Amber was working on me when I slept, because I could feel stitches and my bandage was changed.