Twisted tale of Negan

Letting it go

Lucy pov

"What the hell?" Maggie shouted as i walked in.

I'm panicking, I'm bleeding. I'm a hysterical mess.

"The. The. The baby!" i cried out.

I wasn't dumb, when you miscarry you bleed, and i was bleeding an insane amount. I looked to Negan, and i could tell he was shit faced, he looked at me confused.

Maggie stood up and ran to me, she held my arm as we walked throughout the house and to her bedroom, i was crying out loudly now, and i didn't care.

Maggie quickly turned on her shower and started undressing me, "what happened!" she practically screamed over my cries.

I removed me hoodie and threw it to the ground and started crying even harder, if that's even possible.
Just then Katherine's figure appeared in the doorway, she rubbed her eyes "mommy?"

I say down in the tub and my blood starting polluting the water.

Negans loud and drunk footsteps sounded from Maggie's bedroom.

"Katherine, come here" he says lowly and calmly.

"But daddy what's wrong with mom-"

"Now!" he shouted.

Katherine jumped at his tone, she ran out of the room, and Negan comes into the bathroom.

"Baby, I'll be right back.. Okay, I'll be back i love you. I just have to take her away from this" he slurred.
He walked out of the bathroom.

Maggie tried to calm me down

"The baby can still be there.." she says trying to keep hope alive "it's normal to bleed."

I clench my eyes together due to pain in my abdomen "No! It's gone! This isn't normal" i screamed.

Maggie stood up slowly and held her belly "we need a nurse, someone with medical experience.. Only if daddy was here."

Just then the last person i ever wanted to help me would actually have to now.. Amber.

"Amber! Go get amber!"

Maggie rushes out of the bedroom, just as Rick comes in. I'm completely bare.

"Do you mind?" i ask covering my boobs.

He shrugs "it's not like i haven't seen it before.."

I relax a little but still have myself covered.

"Lucy, everything's gonna be okay" Rick says calmly, obviously trying to make me feel better.

My abdomen feels on fire, it hurts, it feels like someone is stabbing my abdomen over and over again.

"Rick, i just want this to be over."

He smiles softly and crouches next to the tub, he takes my hand in his and holds it "I know things might seem real shitty right now.. But its gonna be okay Lucy"

I shake my head in disbelief "No, it wont. It will never be okay again. Not after this."

"Hey look at me" Rick says softly.

I lift my head so my green eyes are looking straight into his ocean blue ones. "Lucy, i love you. Everything is going to be okay, i promise"

I stop him "Rick, you don't love me stop saying that.."

"How could i not? You're so beautiful. When you first came to our group.. I couldn't help but to feel connected to you. You're sweet, kind, and down to earth.. Negan is a piece of shit. He doesn't know what he has really has, because if he did, he wouldn't.. Be an abusive asshole!" he becomes furious.

"Enough! Enough Rick! I don't want to hear anymore, Stay out of my personal life.. I don't have those same feelings to you"

"Bullshit" Rick scoffed. "I saw the way you looked at me that night Negan captured us."

"It was out of remorse!"

"And why did you feel remorse!? Just admit you care!" Rick ahouted.

Silence fell, very uncomfortable silence. I could bite through the tension, and i just wanted Rick out of my sight. I don't want to see him.

Just then i heard a throat clear in the doorway, and there stood Maggie

"Rick, maybe you should go"

He widened his eyes and looked back to me and nodded. He stormed away.

Maggie and Amber entered the room, she was still pretty bruised from our fight we had

"Nice to see you again" she says sarcastically.

I scream out in pain "Just help me!"
Maggie helped me out of the tub and laid me on the floor, Amber was feeling around my stomach. Her face was confused, and i was scared.

"Talk to me amber!" i shout.

She rolls her eyes and pushes into my abdomen "From what i can feel there is swelling in the abdomen" she pushes further and furrows her eyebrows together "have you had any signs of pregnancy?"

I shrug "yeah, i mean.. I've had morning sickness and whatnot."

She nods "well truth is, lucy we wont know until the morning.. If the bleeding stops soon, you are okay.. But if it doesn't, you might not.."

"Yeah" i finish her sentence before she could even finish..

I was helped up, i got dressed and decided i would head home so i can go see Negan.

Maggie and Amber walked me to my house, i walked in to see Negan fucking someone.

I stood there in shock "What the hell!?" i shout.

Negan quickly stops and panics "Lucy! Honey! It's not what it looks like!"

"Where's my daughter!" i slam the door open and see that the woman he was fucking was Rosita.

She stood up and and covered herself up "She's she's upstairs"

I cried out "Really Rosita?! I thought we were friends!"

She wrapped the blanket around her "We are Lucy! There's a explanation for this!"

"Get the hell out of my house!" i shout.

She hurries behind Negan and runs out of my house.

Negan throws his hands up "Lucy, baby i-"

"No! You get the fuck out of my house! Leave me be. I hate you. I hate you so much!" i spat.

I ran upstairs and into my bedroom. I threw myself down on the bed and cried, i could have cried for hours. And that's exactly what i did.

Not only did i possibly lose the one thing that was potentially keeping me alive, i also lost the man i adored most. The man that kept me sane, maybe Rick was right.

No, he wasn't, i just want Negan back. I feel as if my heart was torn out and ripped to shreds.

Wherever my husband is.. Please just let him come back.

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Its been a couple of hours, i woke up and realized i wasn't bleeding anymore!

I turn to my side to see Negans tired face looking at mine.

"Hey baby.. I wanna say im sorry"

"Its okay.. Come here."

I hold out my arms and he reaches down to hug me. "I love you Negan, please don't leave me.."

"Never will i ever leave you princess"