Twisted tale of Negan

Sink or Swim

Rick held me close to him as i was crying, I shouldn't be crying. Negan did the same thing I did. He ran to the arms of another person. I just wish this didn't hurt so damn bad. 

It was too real, It was all in front of me now. negan isn't mine, and im not his. This shouldn't be leaving me with a sour taste in my mouth but it does. 

I will always love Negan, as I would wish he loves me back. Why did things get so complicated between us? 

I gave him everything of me, I made myself vulnerable to him. I let him devour me and my mind. 

Rick of course was still completely oblivious as to why i was crying "Lucy, please tell me its not because of.. Negan?" he asked cautiously. 

I stopped hugging him and scoffed "why doesn't anyone understand? thats my husband no matter what.." my voice trailed off once i saw ricks facial expression, he didn't seem too happy i was this torn up about negan. 

"really?" rick asked in disbelief, he walked back to the table where the girls were, shaking his head he continued eating. 

"what?" i asked. 

"Katherine, why dont you and Judith go upstairs and play?" rick says calmly to the girls. 

"cmon Judy" Katherine grabs her hand and they walk up the stairs and they were come. 

after the two girls left rick was silent, i dont know if he was being quiet for the sake of trying to stop an argument, or if he was being quiet because he was hurt. 

"rick?" i asked softly coming up behind him and placing my hand on his back and gently moving it up and down. 

"you arent over him, are you?" he asked.

i sighed out and knelled down next to him "Im.. im trying" 

he stood up quickly and was just shaking his head "i shouldn't be responsible for you, or your daughter if you dont even give a shit about me!" he says angrily. 

being yelled at didn't scare me, i have been yelled at a lot, so ricks action didn't intimidate me, instead it made me think differently of him. i didn't know rick was even capable of blowing up on me, out of all people. 

he stormed into the kitchen and grabbed his belt, he started putting it on. 

"Rick, stop lets talk about this.." i said calmly trying not to spark anything in him. 

"theres nothing to talk about" he looked down at me, tilting his head giving me that look of death. that sexy, yet intimidating look. 

i backed up a bit and ran into the counter, he smirked and continued to put on his belt. 

i watched him buckle it, he looked at me and nodded "ill see you around lunch, yeah?" he asked normally. 

all i did is nod. 

"good" he came up to me and kissed my forehead. 

im completely confused on what the hell is happening, he walks away and out of the door, and with that he is gone. 

"dad?" Carl asked coming down the stairs. 

i quickly got myself together and met Carl at the staircase "hey, he just left.." 

"shit. i had to ask him a question.." Carl says sitting down on the couch. 

i followed and sat "well i mean i can try to help out.. what is it?" 

he sighed and messed with his hat "i would much rather talk to dad about it. no offense" 

i shrugged "your dad would like for me to help out as much as possible.. so it wouldn't hurt to just ask me Carl" 

he finally gives in "well.. you know Enid right?" he says blushing a bit. 

i smile and nod. 

"well.. i like. i want to be with her, and i dont know if she even sees me like that. i mean, i dont even know how to really talk to girls, considering this fucking-" 

"hey watch it" i growled. 

he smiled "sorry, i just dont even know how to peruse that." 

i nod and think about it for a second "well. do you think she likes you? she seems really to herself-"

"you have to get to know her before she opens up. and besides i dont think she would want to talk to a psychopaths wife." Carl says quickly defending her. 

i sit there and look at him, im really offended he would say that.. but than again it is very true. 

"ex wife" i correct him. 

he smiles and nods. 

just as i was about to give him advice, shots rung out outside. Carl quickly got down, as did i. 

"go check on Judith and Katherine!' i shouted, running towards my guns, i picked up my glock, and jogged to the door. 

"what.. what about us?" Carl asked. 

"just keep them safe Carl, you protect them with every bone in your body!" 

and with that i exited the house, and crouched down to see  what exactly was going on. 

i could see several unfamiliar people flooding into the gates, with big trucks and heavy machinery, i was genuinely scared, i didn't know what the hell was going to happen, all i knew was that there was going to be a war.. a bloody bloody war. 

i felt someone grab me, i screamed out when i realized it was negan. 

"what the hell?" i asked becoming angry "you can get us both killed" 

"you're the loud mouth" he says sarcastically. "i just came to get my daughter, im getting the hell out of here." 

"you're not just taking her" i said sternly "you're going to stay here, and help us handle whatever the fuck this is!" I yelled 

"SHH! are you crazy? you need to lower your tone. fine." negan says aiming his rifle up and taking out a few people. 

my heart began to race, i didn't even know what the hell to do, not even two minuets ago i was giving Carl advice about getting with someone, and now i might get my head blown off, all because of some unknown problem?