Twisted tale of Negan

Leaving

Negan pov

Damn, it was hard to leave today. I didn't want to leave Lucy.. I just wanted to stay in bed with her and watch it storm outside while I held her.

But I didn't, I thought I needed space. I woke up earlier than she did, I sat and watched it storm. I'm surprised Katherine hasn't tried to come in here.

Lucy had her head rested on my chest, and was lightly snoring herself away. I don't want to give this up.. I never want to leave this. But I've got to. That's how I'm gonna make us stronger right?

I stroked her arm lightly as I watched it pour down rain.

An hour goes by... Then 30 minutes. And still, it's storming.

I try to move but Lucy doesn't allow that, she wraps her arm around me and holds. Still snoring. I watch her and she looked absolutely beautiful. I kiss her forehead and move slightly.

By now I'm out of the bed, I watch Lucy toss and turn frantically for awhile. It was like she was loosed without me. As much as it pains me to watch her I know I'm doing the right thing.

I run the shower and get in, not wasting one drop of it. I stand there and really just contemplate everything.

I quickly shut off the shower and dry myself off, followed by putting on my jeans and shirt. I put on my sweater and lace up my boots.

Lucy somehow managed to stay still.

I grab my bags and walk slowly and quietly throughout the house, I open the door to see it was raining lightly.

I walked throughput Alexandria carefully trying not to have any attention drawn to me, but of course I failed, I bumped into the ginger... What's his name... Abraham!

"Holy dicks, that's a lot of bags you have there." He states.

I nod

"Where you going?" He asks.

"I'm.. Leaving"
"I'll be dammed! You're leaving? So soon.. Damn I have to tell Lucy and Katherine goodbye, you're such a lucky bastard-"

I cut him off "They are staying here." I growl.
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After packing up my bags and finishing my chit chat with ginger, I make it back into the house and Katherine is standing at the door.

"What are you doing daddy?" She asked.

I sigh "nothing, baby you should be sleeping" I close the door behind me and make my way to the stairs and walk quietly with Katherine right behind me. I didn't want Lucy to wake up before I left, I'm trying to make this easier on her and I. But Katherine might ruin that.

I grab her hand and lead her to her room "listen... I'm leaving for awhile" I say nonchalantly.

"What why?" She says.

I shrug "you're mother and I.. We need space."

"Do you. It love her anymore?" She asks innocently.

My heart almost breaks, for my child to think I don't love her mother anymore. I never had a father.. My father left my mother as soon as I was born, and I always thought he never loved my mother, nor me. And I will never let my daughter love with that burden. Ever. This is my little girl we are talking about, and my heart is slowly breaking.

"No no no, Katherine of course I love mom... We just need space" I try to reason.

"But when you love someone, you want to spend every second with them, and not leave them. Or me! You don't love me!"

I quickly bring her into a hug and let her cry into my shoulder

"Go away you monster!" She shouted.

"Katherine Elizabeth listen to me!"

She stops squirming and just lays there limply in my arms.

I sigh out and hold her "you listen to me.." I say out of breath. "I love you.. I love your mother with every inch of my being. I just need space."

"It's all my fault" she whimpers.

"No. It's not your fault.. It's mine baby, it's mine for being so weak.. So distant. It's not your fault ever. Do not blame yourself baby" I pull her so she can look into my eyes, her little green eyes filled with tears.

"Okay baby?" I ask.

She nods "okay daddy"

I kissed her cheek and held her.

"Now, it's very very early. I need you to go back to sleep sweetheart okay?" I ask nicely.

She climbed into her bed and pulled her covers up to under her chin.
I go to walk away when she speaks up

"Wait.. Can you read to me... One more time?" She asks sadly.

Which broke my heart even more. "Yes.. I will"
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After reading to her she fell asleep. I watched my daughter sleep soundly. She looked so peaceful. I took in the sight and kissed her forehead

"Good bye, bug" I whisper.

I slowly walk away and keep her door open. I walk to our bedroom and examine Lucy. And here I will break down. I let a single tear fall as I stared at the woman that I wanted more then anything sleep so peacefully. I silent cry, I'm leaving everything I worked so hard for behind. I'm leaving the woman that changed me here. The daughter that saved me from myself here.

The woman I vowed that I would always protect, that I would love her In sickness and in health, just here. Lying here completely oblivious to what's fixing To happen.

I wipe my eyes and sniffle.

Okay... It's time to do this,before I change my mind.

I walk quietly up next to her and place a kiss on her forehead

"No matter what happens Lucille, just know that I love you."

I walk away and quietly shut the door. I take one look around the house before I exit.

I see Daryl on watch, I walk to him and place a hand on his shoulder

"Please, look after my family Daryl"

He grunts in response.

I nod and get into the car. Daryl,opens the gate and off I go.. Into a new world for a while. I look to my right and see Katherine's stuffed animal sitting there. I smile softly.. Oh how I'm gonna miss that little pain in the ass