Twisted tale of Negan

Feelings

Rick pov

It's been weeks since I've heard from Negan, maybe that's a good thang, I don't have time to worry about him coming back, Alexandria is in ruins.

The walls have been under repair for awhile now, we have had a couple mishaps, but not a lot of people have been hurt. I'm doing a perimeter check when michonne approaches me

"Hey, how's everything going?" She asks awkwardly.

Her and I had a thang, well more like a fling. But it stopped shortly after I met Negan. Not that Negan just discouraged me to be with her, I just don't really want to be with anyone. It took me awhile to open back up after Lori.

"It's going alright.." Is all i say, hoping she will get the hint.

She nods "that's good.. Where's Negan?"

"I don't know.. I'm not concerned, his death is the less of our worries"

She walks away and takes out her katana, I don't know where she is going. But she will be back.

I make my way over to the porch and sit down on the steps, I examine the houses before me in this little neighborhood. Reminds me of when Lori and I were together, her and I would sit on our front porch and just talk. About nothing really, I could just ramble on and on with her, and she would listen.

"Hey there." Maggie sounds from behind me.

I stand up "hey"

She smiles "you doin okay Rick?"

"Yeah, just worried about the walls.. I don't want them to cave in"

She nods "yeah that'd be bad.. I saw Judith playing today in the house with Carl.. She looks a lot like her"

I smile "yeah she does.."

"She's absolutely precious." Maggie walks off if the porch and makes her way to her own house.

I walk into the house to see Judith bouncing up in down in her bouncer. Carl was at her side playing and making Judith laugh.

As soon as he noticed I was in the house he stops and stands up straight "hey dad"

I nod to him.

I make my way up to my room and onto my bed, I plop down and for some reason the first thing i think about is Lucy. Her soft skin, her green eyes. The way she looked at me as I fuck- what am I doing? I can't love her! I just can't.

Can I?
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Lucy pov

It's been weeks, and our little family has gotten closer, none of negans men look at me weird anymore, which is good.

I don't know how far along I am, but I have a little bump already, it's barely noticeable but it's there.

Katherine is feeling more at home now, considering she has her own room. She has Nathan's old one, which is right next to mine. So that's good. Negan has been laying out plans for us, and moving on. I think he wants us all to move into Alexandria, which I honestly would be okay with. We could live in an actual house. But from what I've been hearing the walls aren't so secure anymore, so that's a downside, but I'm sure it's fine.

"Quit moving Katherine" I mumble repositioning Katherine's head for her haircut.

"Mom! I don't want a haircut! I want long hair" she whines.

"I'm not cutting it too short." I say snipping a price to right under her jawline.

She cries out "did you just see how much fell out?"

"Yes, I'm pregnant, not blind. Now sit still and quit your whining" as I'm snipping away Rick wanders into my thoughts why? I don't know. The way he spoke to me, treated me, he was so gentle yet rough with me. And I loved it.

"Lucy?" Negan asks shaping fingers by my ear.

"Huh?"

"Do you have duty today?" He asks.

"Shit! Yeah, I'm late" I drop the scissors and scurry off outside to the post. I walk happily thinking I'm about to go see Nathan, but as I approached closer and closer I realized Nathan won't be the, and then my heart sank, it's my fault he is dead. I'm guilty. That should have been me I mean it was my idea.

I climb the post and stand watch with Trevor. He got on my nerves, he really made me want to choke him out sometimes, but for some unknown reason Negan kept him around.

Trevor smiled at me "hi there pretty"

"Shut up Trevor" I cross my arms and stand.

He laughs "still being a cold hearted bitch I see"

Just then I snap "I will push you off of this fucking ledge and make it look like an accident!" I spat.

He smiled "you're cute when you're mad"

Just then I see Rick waking alone up to our gates. Why is he walking here?

"Open the gates!" I shout.

Trevor rolls his eyes "no, let him die!"

"Open the gates now!"

The gates open and Rick walks in slowly, he looks panicked.

"Rick, what is it?" i ask.

He looks at me, his eyes wide "Lucy.. I can't do this anymore" he says.

"Can't do what anymore?"

He lowers his voice "i need you, i want you Lucy, it's been so long since I've felt this way" he starts rambling.

But i stop him "Rick, not here. Okay? This isn't smart.." i turn around to see Negan walking toward us with Lucille on his shoulder.

Greaaat.

"Well well well, how ya doing prick?" Negan says proudly.

Rick clenches his jaw "just fine"

"Well. Then why are you here?" Negan barked.

"I just.. I came to see how Katherine was doing." Rick states landing his hand on his Python.

"She's just fine, we need to talk"

"About what?" i ask, jumping into the conversation.

Negan shoots me a glare that honestly scared me. He turns to Rick, "I'm moving our people into Alexandria"

Rick scoffed "No. No way, not happening"

Negan laughs "you seem to forget that i own you, look prick. Don't come into my gates and try to boss me around."

Rick sighs out "we don't have the room, sorry"

"Then make the room!" Negan shouts.

All i know is that this is not gonna be a good day for all three of us.