Twisted tale of Negan

Needed me

 this house is mad! im tired, i haven't gotten a lick of sleep since Maggie and the baby, dont get me wrong, im so glad the baby is finally here, but i just cant. i need a break, soon, or ill go insane. 

i thought maybe with negan back he could help me out, maybe keep Katherine occupied. but instead he is a useless drunk just like when we were first married. he has become quite rude with me, and i dont know how to handle it. i have found myself cowarding down, or flinching around him. thank god he hasn't noticed, or he would be pissed. 

Katherine is more then confused with him, she just wanted her father back. not whoever this man is now. 

i walk down stairs to see him on the couch, passed out of course. i come a little more into the room to see the countless bottles of bourbon strewn all throughout the living room. 

my blood is boiling by now, i have had enough! im tired of this shit. im beyond done with negan. 

i take my water and throw it onto his face. his eyes pop open, they are all red. 

"what the fuck?" he exclaims

i narrow my eyes and fold my arms "care to explain these bottles, negan?" 

he sighs out in annoyance "not right now luc.. im way too tired to argue with the most beautiful person left on this god damn forsaken fuckin planet" 

i quickly straddle his waist and force his arms down 

"ah, so you just wanted a morning round? why didn't you just ask darlin?" he smirks. 

"no! you need to step up! im not going to except this behavior.. not again" i say sternly. 

he furrows his eyebrows "what behavior you talking about?" 

"lets face it negan, you're a sadistic abusive asshole.." i continue "or you were.. at least" 

he shakes his head and pushes my arms away from him "no the fuck i wasn't" 

"negan! open your damn eyes! yes you were." 

by now we are shouting. i examine him for a expression, but i couldn't find one. his eyes softened

"i should have never came back.." he says lowly. 

"whys that huh?" i walk up to him and look up at the man i loved.  

"ive only gotten worse luc. i need you, i need you to save me." he holds my hand in his "i cant fix myself. ive tried. when i was away, i fucked everything up. im used to drinking everyday. im used to lounging around. i know ive changed. i want to be the man i was before i left" 

i sigh out in disgust "here we go with your fucking excuses" i roll my eyes and try to walk away, but negan grabs me and puts me up against a wall, my legs wrapped around his waist, back against the wall, him pinning me up so we are eye level. 

"listen to me" he growled. 

"why huh? so you can disappoint me again?" i said bravely. "go ahead and leave negan. thats what you do best is leave.. you dont know how many fucking nights i stayed up, worrying about your dumb ass! how many nights i longed for your touch on my skin! how i just wanted to know i was loved! so dont sit here and tell me you got this shit hard." 

i clenched my eyes shut, waiting for his reaction, waiting for the slap that was bound to cross my face. 

instead there wasn't a slap that touched me, it was negans lips, he kissed my forehead softly. 

i hesitantly opened my eyes, to see negan looking at me, he looked hurt, but sorry. 

"baby, i didn't know.." he says softly. he starts kissing and nibbling on my neck, i moan out in response. wait, what am i doing? im supposed to hate him! right? 

he lips make their way to my ear as he nibbles lightly he whispers "you are loved Lucy" 

i hum in response, i bite down on my lip to try and stop the moans that are dying to escape from my lips. 

"what do you say.. i fuck your brains out right here?" 

i moan out at his words. i can feel him smirk against my skin 

"awh is my baby wet for me?" 

his hand lingers to my waistband of my panties, clearly he is trying to tease me. 

"please negan" i plead with him. 

his hand slips and cups my sex "i bet you would like that huh?" 

i nod. 

he slips a finger in, and i close my eyes. i bite my lip harder.

"oh what is it baby? cat got your tongue?" 

i nod my head frantically, he laughs and inserts another finger, this time more forcefully he pumps in and out. 

i feel the tension rising in my stomach as i am close. 

but as if on cue, ambers voice sounds from the hallway "lucy? are you down here?" she asked. 

negan goes to slip his fingers out, but i grab his hand and keep it there. he pumps even aster, and i moan slightly as i release all over his two fingers. it was so intense i had to catch my breath. he quickly set me down. 

amber was walking down the stairs, negan played it off well, however i didn't. i was a trembling mess. 

i stood up on my own, and just in time, amber was standing at the edge of the stairs. 

she gave negan and i a strange look and raised an eyebrow "you okay?" 

i look up to negan who nonchalantly licked his fingers "oh yeah, we were just coming" he smiles at his own joke. 

i turn red and look back to amber and nod. 

she walks away, i wait until she is at the top of the stairs, i turn to negan and slap his shoulder playfully. 

"what you didn't like that joke?" 

i giggled "okay, it was a good one." 

we stood there and looked at each-other for a moment, and it was like what i said ten minuets ago was irrelevant, i knew negan loved me. 

he smiled that smile i absolutely adored. i smile back, he leans down for a kiss. we kissed passionately

"i love you lucy" he says into the kiss. 

"oh i love you too negan" i breathed out.