Twisted tale of Negan

we did it

I watched every move Amber made when she was dealing with Maggie.

I looked at Maggie occasionally and could tell she was panicked.

"Hey.. It's gonna be okay Maggie I'm here" i try to soothe her.

Amber puts on her gloves "Okay listen.. Maggie. Soon you are going to need to push." she stated

Maggie started panicking "No no no I'm not ready"

Amber was fixing to argue with Maggie when i stopped her

"Maggie, it's going to be okay. We need you to push." I try to persuade her to keep going. "And I will be right here. You can grab my hand as hard as you want"

She took my hand in hers "okay" she says calmly. 

amber gets in between maggies wide open legs and orders her to push, Maggie does and she quickly starts screaming. amber smiles to herself, i watch in horror as blood goes everywhere, i try not to watch considering i have already had to go through this pain, i remember the pain as if it was yesterday, i can only now know how negan felt watching me scream in agony as something the size of a watermelon was coming out of me. i turn my face away in disgust as i feel myself getting quite nauseous. 

Maggie grips onto my hand and pushes even harder 

"good! good Maggie! just a couple more pushes" amber announces from below. 

i face Maggie who looks like a ghost, her skin has been drenched of its color, her eyes looked completely exhausted, and i dont blame her, pushing out a baby is a long and painful ass process. she locks eyes with mine and smiles weakly. 

"what?" i ask confused. 

"you really thought i pissed on your couch? i would never" she laughs weakly. 

i smile and nod

she continues "i hope im not smashing your hand.." she says kind of feeling bad. 

"nope, my hand is fine. keep pushing, ill be right here" i assure her. 

she begins to push, i can see a head, and i almost vomit. i cant believe i actually went through this too. and if was even possible, she gripped my hand even tighter, i purse my lips together to try and escape my yelp out. i had to squeeze her hand back so she wouldn't break my hand. 

"Maggie, your baby is almost here, just one more big push" amber says firmly, getting ready to grab the baby. 

Maggie does as she is told and pushes one last time, she gripped my hand even tighter as she pushed with all of her force. by now her and i were groaning out in pain. 

but the chaos seemed to come to an end as we heard a babies cry out. 

i couldn't tame the big smile the spread across my face, i looked down to Maggie who seemed to be sharing the same expression, and in that moment i knew, no matter how much pain Maggie has gone through, with loosing her father, with loosing her sister, and loosing Glenn, that this little baby boy was going to save her. 

this little baby was going to keep Maggie sane, saner then im sure anyone has seen her in a long time. 

i got so caught up in the baby i was tearing up, not even close to the amount that Maggie was crying, but just enough. 

amber wrapped the new baby boy in her arms, he was shouting his little fragile lungs out. 

amber turns toward Maggie and i, she looked to Maggie, and Maggie nodded. i was completely oblivious to what that was all about. 

amber clears her throat "Lucy? would you like to cut the cord?" 

my smile only grew, i turned toward Maggie "only if thats okay with you?" 

she nodded. 

amber handed me a pair of scissors, i snipped the cord and amber quickly wrapped the baby into a blue fluffy blanket. 

she handed him off to me, i respectfully declined considering i thought Maggie should be the first to hold her newborn, but she seemed to have no problem with it. 

i held the tiny baby in my arms and slowly rocked it. the baby resembled Glenn in many ways in the face. i smiled down at him and kissed his forehead. 

"ill leave you guys alone for awhile" amber says respectfully. she exits the room, and the only sound that was in the room was the baby sniffling from all the crying he just did. 

i rocked him peacefully and looked over to Maggie, she had a weak smile plastered on her face 

"you did it" i say proudly. 

she shakes her head "no.. we did it" 

"I didn't do anything Maggie, it was all you" 

"oh hush, you helped me every step of the way Lucy. even back at the warehouse, when you knew negan could turn on you, you still helped me.. i knew ever since that night, that i could trust you. you have put up with all of the hatred i once had for negan. you put up with my hormonal self.. so we did it" she persuades. 

i nod and tear up a bit "what.. what are you going to name him?" 

without any hesitation at all she answers "Herschel Jr." 

"who was the first Herschel?" i asked curious

"my father" she says softly. 

i nod and look back at Maggie and down at Herschel Jr. "thats a beautiful name" 

i hand jr off to Maggie and walk away "ill come bring back amber" 

i shut the door softly and slowly walked down the stairs to see about half of Alexandria in my house. i waved for amber to go back up stairs, she grabbed her water and sprinted back up the stairs. 

it was silent for awhile, i really couldn't get over the fact that of all days, negan decides today will be the day he steps back into Katherine and i's life. it just isn't fair to us. he kicked us aside for months, and he thinks showing up on katherines birthday is going to make her forget that he wasn't there? 

or make me forget the countless number of nights i spent wide awake, alone in a huge ass bed, waiting for him to come back? 

"how.. how is she?" rick asks. 

everyone picked up their heads and looked to me 

"shes doing just fine. its a baby boy.. and his name is Herschel Jr." 

rick smiled softly and nodded 

"rick you are more than welcome to go take a look if you would like" amber sounds from the stairs. 

he nods and rushes up the stairs. 

my eyes wandered all around the room but they of course found their way to negan. he stood there, face washed with guilt. he smiled at me, and even though i despise him at the moment i couldn't help but smile back at him. 

every bone in my body pushed me to run into his arms and thats exactly what i did. 

he held his arms out, and i fell into his chest, he held me tight to him. he noticed everyone starring at him and i. 

"everyone can leave now. out of my house" he says sternly. 

they did as they were told, some of them said hateful things under their breath as they walked out of the house. 

after a minute or two, it was just negan and i standing in the middle of the living room. 

'i thought you were gone.. forever" i said into his chest. 

he kissed the top of my head "no, i couldn't stay away from my princess." 

i let him go and kiss him on the lips 

"we did it baby"