Twisted tale of Negan

Gone too soon

I walked in silence throughout Alexandria, it started thundering, so we had to rush this little burial. 

there surprisingly weren't any injuries today, no one was hurt, everyone was okay.. all except my little girl. 

its not fair! first i lose my second child, and now im losing my only one left? is this some sort of cruel joke? 

ive done nothing to do deserve this, i have stuck through everything life has given me. i stayed so strong for so many years, all for katherines sake.. i stayed with negan, for Katherine. i wake up everyday for her. and now? she isn't going to be here with me. 

rick rallied up all of the people to meet us at the grave sight, this isn't a proper goodbye, its too rushed. 

i look over to negan who has several tears rolling down his cheeks as he stares down at our little girl. 

one thing im going to miss is her sweet smile. the way she could just light up the room with just one little small smile. 

or the countless number of times she would force negan to read her favorite book, curious George for bed for almost hours. over and over again, he would preach the words out of the book, almost not even having to look at it, knowing the pages word by word, and Katherine would act as if it was her first time ever hearing it. she would laugh at the curious little monkey, she was hooked every single time. 

my daughter was the rock, she kept negan and i sane, even before the apocalypse, she was the reason negan kept showing up for work, and the reason he was so eager to come home to her. she changed him. before she was born, negan wasn't a family man, due to the lack of parents in his own life, and thats exactly what makes me think he is a great father. he acts like the father negan never got the chance to meet, or hell even see. 

i cant even express how happy she would make him. even if he was pissed at me, or anything. as soon as he was around Katherine  his whole persona changed. he was the sweet down to earth man that i fell for. 

under that rough exterior, he is truly just a big teddy bear. and thats why i still adore him. 

you know, when i first found out i was pregnant, i was excited to b expecting a little me running around.. From the first moment i discovered that i was pregnant, i pictured a sweet, innocent little girl, hell i was expecting her to be that and maybe thats why they call it 'expecting' for that reason. i began to 'expect' that happiness and joy that she would bring, that little spark of love was exactly what negan and i needed at the time. 

thunder roared in the sky as more and more of Alexandria showed up. 

father Gabriel decided he would start 

"hello everyone.. we are gathered here today to put Katherine to rest.. Life.. it seems like something that would last a long time.. for some of us, its something that flies by." father Gabriel looks up to negan and nodded to him to say a few words about Katherine.

"my little girl.. she was so full of love, she wouldn't even hurt a fly.. she saw life differently than i ever could. she was pure, and her heart.. her heart was.." he began to choke up. he started crying "im sorry" he quickly apologized. 

everyone started to say comforting things, and he calmed down a bit. 

he continues "i dont know why this is happening to me.. maybe its some sort of karma for all the pain and hurt i have brought to people, but my little girl didn't deserve to leave like she did.."

 he looked over to Maggie who had Herschel jr placed on her hip "and i understand now, what pain i caused certain people.. no one deserves to deal with  this kind of absence in their life.." 

he mouthed 'im sorry" to Maggie. and she nodded. 

father Gabriel steps in "would you like to say something Lucy?" he asked softly. 

i looked over to negan and shook my head "no" i said quickly, trying not to cry. 

"id like to say something" 

my head quickly turned over and Daryl was standing there. no one expected him to speak, so it was kinda shocking he would offer. 

"go ahead" Gabriel says 

"that little girl.. she was an angel. in the short amount of time i got to know her, she definitely knew how to make someone smile.. i would have done anything to keep her safe, had i been there. i thought of her like one of my own. just like i do little jr, and Judith.. Katherine was too young.. and i can only imagine how you two feel.. but i promise ye aint gonna be going through this loss alone.. she impacted all of us" 

everyone nodded in agreement. 

negan placed Katherine in her grave, he laid her down gently, he placed her down, and he was a mess. 

i hadnt noticed Carl and Judith were there, mainly because i was avoiding eye contact with everyone. 

after she was placed, negan walked over to me and brought me into his arms. and thats when i broke down. 

we all stood in silence, just the sound of whimpering and sobs. 

i looked over to see Judith walked over to rick, he crouched down and whispered in his ear. 

he smiled slightly "i think thats a good idea baby" he says . 

she walks over to Katherine grave, and by now everyone is looking at Judith, she placed a small teddy bear next to Katherine 

i wiped away my tears and smiled. i shook myself out of negans grip and walked over to Judith and placed her on my hip "what are you doin kiddo?" i asked. 

she shrugged "Katherine always sleeps with her teddy bear.. so she can have mine" she said innocently, and it broke my heart. 

i kneeled down and looked at Katherine "goodnight my angel" i whispered. 

everyone began to slowly drift away, negan went to go fill the hole when rick stopped him 

"you shouldn't have to do this.. ill take care of it" rick said sweetly. 

negan nodded and walked off, i handed Judith off to Carl, and walked over to rick 

"thank you.." i said softly. 

he started messing with the shovel "for?" 

"for being so patient with me.." i confessed. i walked even closer to him and took the shovel out of his hand, i let it fall to the floor, and rick and i were starring into each others eyes. 

i went to kiss him but he stopped me 

"you should be with negan right now.. you are the mother of.." his voice trailed off. 

i narrowed my eyes "but i wanna be here with you.. i love you" i said. 

he nodded and picked up the shovel "you need to comfort him now.. ill see you later baby" 

and with that he continues to fill the grave.