Ride Or Die

Sequel~ To Think Like This

To Think Like This

I had started sleeping back in my dorm alone, telling Jason I was afraid to get him sick or give him what I had. I didn't know what was going on, but I happened to wait several mornings and go through a lot of sickness before telling anyone at all.

"What do you mean you've been sick for a week?" Serena backed away, obviously worried about me being contagious. "Yeah, it's the weirdest thing," My arms crossed over my chest before I continued with a confused expression, "It's just in the morning then I'm fine for the rest of the day..." Haley's eyes went wide, "Have you been to the doctor?" I shook my head back and forth to answer her question. "What does Jason have to say about all this?" Sam motioned her hands around in the air making a messy gesture. I shrugged mindlessly, "Nothing, I've been sleeping in my own room, I didn't want to worry him."

"I think you should tell him."

"Yeah, he needs to know."

"They're right," The girls were all in agreement, all except me. My head shook even more vigorously as I disagreed, "No way, he'd just freak out. Whatever this is, I'll be okay and get over. Plus, he's been so swamped with work I don't want to bother him." Serena's eyes went wide as she appeared more than frustrated, "Something could be seriouy wrong, Pay. You need to tell him, he would want to know."

"I've got this under control, no body say a word." I commanded.

"You're gonna keep this from him?" Sam asked in disbelief.

"It's just a little cold."

"I think you're pregnant." Serena stated her explanation so bluntly and plain it shocked me. Pregnant? No way in hell. We've always used protection. I was positive this was only a stomach flu. I couldn't imagine Jason's response if the idea of me even being pregnant got around. My eyes rolled at the thought then settled back to my best friend in a narrowed gesture, "I hope that's not a fat joke," I tried my best to take the comment nonchalantly because I knew if that idea got into the girls' heads, it would never be let go. I was not pregnant.

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"Hi love," My lips pecked Jason's cheek bone gently before I pulled back to gaze at his flawless face. Damn, I was lucky. He beamed back in my direction, "Hey baby. I've missed you." His bottom lip poked out slightly as he pouted to himself. I couldn't fight the urge against the vibrant smile that soon snuck it's way to cover my lips like make up. "I know, and I miss you more, believe me." My mind couldn't help but wonder what to what the girls were saying earlier about me being pregnant. That idea seemed to be so unreal it was impossible. I knew for a fact I wasn't, and I refused to let the thought bother me any further. So that's when I discarded the solution all together. I would set up a doctors appointment soon just so I could prove the girls wrong once and for all.

Once I left Jason's room for the night, an action had I had grown accustomed to over the last week, I went straight to my dorm and fell into the bed. I guess I hadn't realized how unusually exhausted my body had been because I almost immediately after laying down fell into a deep slumber that I would not awake from until late morning. Or so I thought, but then once again, as expected I awoke to the most excruciating urge to throw up. This annoyed me and finally pushed me over the edge to call the doctor like Serena had been begging me. It was time to find out what in the hell has been going on with my body.

"Ready to go?" Haley's morning voice chirped as she strutted in my room right when I was applying the last coat of mascara to my eye lashes. I glanced into the mirror and next to my reflection showed a beautiful brunette with glowing blue eyes. I sighed, becoming more and more insecure with each second my friend's appearance stationed behind me. "I suppose," my eyes tried the best they could to wander from the girl, but still, all my confidence was demolished. She smiled into the mirror next to me, "Thank you for finally agreeing to go." She was referring to the doctor's visit we would be attending in just an hour. I rolled my eyes playfully as I pushed her backwards, away from me, "Yeah, yeah."

"Are you nervous?" She questioned as she sat in the drivers seat and refused to even look away from the road for a second. Especially because because she was such a careful driver. I fiddled with my finger aimlessly as my shoulder rose then fell, "Not really, this is more or less to shut everyone up about being pregnant."

"What are you gonna do if you are?"

"I don't want to think like that."

You are probably thinking, why doesn't she want to be pregnant? It's such a beautiful thing. And yeah, I agree, it is. But it's not really for me, nor is it for this life style. No baby should be brought up in a gang. And if not for that, I could see me being excited, however, I knew Jason would never be. I couldn't even picture him as a father figure. Everyone could barely even picture him as boy friend material, much less a father to a little person. I shook off all the thoughts, I can't afford to think like this.