Miracles Of Love (Niall Horan Love Story)

Chapter 24-Should I tell him?

-Niall's POV-

I was lying on my new bed,in my new bed room.We moved to Ireland yesterday because I can't stand to stay in London,knowing it's where ________ died.I still can't believe that she is not living anymore.I refuse to believe it! Some part of me is telling that she is still out there.And no matter how much I know that she is not here anymore,I will still hold on to that part of me,telling me that she is still out there.

I have been crying non stop.What did I ever do to deserve this? I feel like dying right now.There were new scars on both of my hands.I haven't stop cutting my self.It's the only solution I found to forget about her but it didn't work out.

I even thought of committing suicide and I almost did.If my mom didn't find me,I would have died.My mom is now over protective of me.She knows the reason to my misery.She asked me why I'm like this about a girl that I have only started to call 'mine' about a week ago.She doesn't know that I have been in love with her for years and that I haven't had the guts to say anything because of my fucking reputation.

I like a stupid idiot,thinking about that I cared about my reputation back in my old high school.I can't help but think that her loss is my fault.I told my mom that and she kept telling me that it's not my fault.Part of me knows that it isn't but the other part of me is telling that it is my fault.

Like I have told my self,If I didn't go to Ireland,________ would spend the Monday after noon with me and she wouldn't have to face that horrible accident.

I was suppose to go to my new school today but I didn't go.My mom found a job here,so I hid behind the bushes until she left for work,then I sneaked back in to the house.I know that the school might probably call her but I will come up with an excuse then.Why couldn't my mom understand that I can't go to a new school when I'm in this state.She made me take pills because I'm going under depression but it didn't help me.

Why does god hate me this much?!

-Your POV-

The day went by very well.I did make some friends (Harry's group) and I'm happy to have Lorea with me in every class except Algebra.But I have Harry during that class,so the day was great!

"________!" I heard Harry's voice call out from behind.I was walking out of the school along with the others.I stopped and turned to see Harry running towards me.He stopped in front of me and started to pant.

"Harry you don't have to drive me back home.I'm going to the library that you told me about" I said.

"It's a bit of a walk from school.I'll drop you there" he said.

"It's okay I'll-" he cut me off,

"I'll drop you.It's no big deal.And besides,you don't know this neighbour hood" he said.I finally agreed with him.I need to get a new car.I hate to be a depended person.We only had one jeep and I'm pretty sure that my dad will be using that.Another reason why we moved here was that my dad got a job offer a few weeks ago but he declined it but now he finally accepted it.

Harry and I walked to his car.Being a gentle man,Harry opened the door for me.I thanked him as I got in.Harry got in as well and he drove me to the library.

I got a bit bored during History,so I made a list of novels that I want to read.Not only novels by Jane Austen.

After about 5 minutes,Harry stopped the car in front of a big library.Bigger than how I imagined it.