1𝙉𝙊𝙏 𝘼 𝙎𝙐𝙋𝙀𝙍𝙃𝙀𝙍𝙊ʳᵉⁱᵈ

15 | you're as fucked up as me

you're as fucked up as me

f i f t e e n

She was curled up on the couch in the break room, she wasn't allowed to go back home seeing as though she was a target for bombings. He had decided he'd be staying with her, because he wanted to make sure she was safe at all times.

It was 4 am, and she was sleeping soundly, whereas he was sat against the wall on the other side of the room, watching her. He wasn't being creepy, he was thinking. It's been a little over a month since he met her, and he's changed so much. He didn't even mean to, he just, stopped what he was doing.

He hadn't gone back to the ring in a week, and he hadn't touched a cigarette for almost a month. He wasn't even that big of a smoker, it was just a stress reliever and now, he doesn't need it. He's got her, and she's seemingly all he needs. He didn't even know he needed her, that's the thing, he just....found her, and it was like he had been looking for her his whole life.

"So, your middle name is Walter?"

He nodded and she started to giggle. He raised an eyebrow at her.

"Sorry! But can I call you Walt Disney now?!"

She was laughing so hard she was crying and he just shook his head, rolling his eyes at her.

"No"

"Please?"

"No"

"Please, please, pretty please? Just once! Just this one time, let me get it out of my system!"

He huffed and looked at her, her brown eyes wide and her bottom lip stuck out in a pout.

"Fine"

"Thank you so much, Walt Disney!"

"Wait, no! That wasn't as funny as I thought it would be"

He just laughed and kissed her forehead.

"Get some rest, you've got work tomorrow"

If he hadn't found her, what would have happened? Would they have still met? Probably not, they had completely different lives, and the only reason they met that night was because someone wanted to ruin a woman's life and a broken man happened to be walking by afterwards. But still, she's done so much to him, she even holds him when he has nightmares, well yeah he wakes up about an hour or two later to hold her as she cries from her nightmares, but still. They were broken together, and maybe if they held each other tight enough, they'd heal, but the cracks are what make them interesting, the imperfections, the purposeful mistakes in their mold, how it was like his hand fit in her hand dispite the fact that he disliked holding hands, she was an exception. And even though she didn't like Doctor Who very much, she sat and watched it with him. Loving someone isn't liking all the same things, it's learning to like the things you hate. It's caring for someone so much, you start to take care of yourself.

"Spencer,"

Her voice was groggy and soft, but adorable nonetheless. He looked at her like a deer caught in headlights, frozen in time as he took in her beauty.

"Cuddle?"

He smiled slightly and stood up, making his way over to the couch. She had sat up to make room for him to sit down, and once he had, they both laid down, closing their eyes as they fell into an almost poetic sleep.

"I was able to get a list of all the members, the group's bomber is someone named Jade Nidfer, Garcia?"

Hotchner looked at Penelope as she typed away on her computer.

"Got it sir, Jade Nidfer is a 23 year old female who moved here from Florida, but the weird thing is, there's nothing about her before that. Her past is her present"

"An alias, could it be an anagram?"

Hotchner looked to Spencer who thought for a second before grabbing a marker and heading to the white board, writing out different names he could make with 'Jade Nidfer.'

"Christopher knew nothing, he said he hadn't had contact with anyone since he was taken into custody and we checked, no letters, calls, visitors, it's a little sad"

"And how's Karyn?"

Rossi looked at JJ who nodded.

"She's alright, I believe she's sleeping in the break room right now"

Derek nodded and they went back to discussing the case.

Karyn woke up a few minutes later, standing and stretching. She pulled her hair back into a wolf tail and she went looking for Spencer.

He was standing in front of a whiteboard with the name, Jade Nidfer, written at the top. Many other names were written underneath it but there was one that wasn't finished and she knew how to finish it.

She walked up to the board and took a marker, adding a few letters and then putting the cap on her marker.

"How did you?"

"I know her"

"I have found so much beauty in the dark, as I have found a lot of horror in the light"
- Azereth Skivel