1𝙉𝙊𝙏 𝘼 𝙎𝙐𝙋𝙀𝙍𝙃𝙀𝙍𝙊ʳᵉⁱᵈ

39 | forget

forget

t h i r t y - n i n e

"How is she?"

"She says she's fine"

"But?"

"But she's having a hard time, and she doesn't want me to worry about her"

Emily nodded before looking at her watch.

"Lunch?"

"Um, Karyn's coming to have lunch with me, I'll pass"

"Hey, the more the merrier, we can have lunch together, it's been a while since I've talked to her, girl's night has felt all...wrong"

Spencer tilted his eye to the side, furrowing his brows.

"What do you mean?"

"It's just, it feels wrong to have girls night without her"

"She does seem to fit right in, doesn't she?"

"Who fits in?"

JJ asked as she walked up, adding a few cases to the small stacks on their desks.

"Karyn"

"She does, how is she? It feels like I haven't talked to her in forever"

"She's constantly saying she's fine, but she's not"

"Well, she was tortured and raped, she could possibly want to forget about it"

"But, it's better for her to talk about it"

"True, but it's her decision"

Spencer went to say more when Emily stopped him.

"How about this, next time we hang out with her, we'll try to get her to talk, okay? Right now, let's get some lunch"

Spencer nodded and went back to his files as Emily and JJ went off to the break room.

"Hi"

It had only been about 5 minutes when she leaned against his desk, watching him write.

"Hey, just a second"

She chuckled and tucked a strand of hair that had fallen in his face as he was writing, behind his ear.

"Alright, lunch time"

He stood up and smiled at her, taking her hand.

"Hi"

He whispered and she giggled.

"Hey"

"What are you wanting for lunch?"

"Uh, I don't really care, you're the one who hasn't eaten, I've been around coffee and muffins since 12"

He chuckled as they walked to the break room.

"So, you had a good day at work?"

"Yeah, I was only there for two hours"

She smiled and waved at a few of the agents that were sat in the break room, Emily and JJ were part of that.

They sat down at the table with Emily and JJ. She talked and caught up with them as he went to call in an order for pizza.

"So, we're on for Friday?"

"Definitely, but uh, can one of you pick me up? I heard it's gonna rain"

"Sure, I'll pick you up at 7"

"Thanks J"

She smiled and waved as they left, returning to the job. Her and Spencer ate, talking about their day, and their plans.

"So, girls night out?"

"Yeah, guys night?"

"Maybe I'll just read, we always go to some bar, it's not my scene"

She chuckled and shook her head.

"Don't wait up for me, you know that girls night can go on until early hours"

"I know"

She noticed something was off with him, he seemed sad, or at least deep in thought.

"What's going on in that handsome mind of your's?"

He looked at her and sighed.

"You don't want to talk about what happened?"

"Do you want to tell me about when you were kidnapped?"

He bit his lip.

"I got addicted to Dialidud afterward because I liked that I could escape from the reality of things. I was tortured, and I even had to dig my own grave"

His voice never faltered as he stared at her, watching her every movement. She bit her lip this time.

"I'm sorry"

"Don't be, I got through it, just like I know you can get through it. I didn't tell anyone, and it tore me up, it's not good to bottle things up"

"What do you want me to tell you?"

"Everything, but only if you're up for it. I understand if you don't want to talk, I'm just saying that it would help you"

She sighed and avoided eye contact, lowering her voice.

"Can we talk about this later? Let's just finish our lunch and we can worry about this at home"

He leaned over, leaving a lingering kiss on her forehead.

"Of course"

"It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens, but it is never gone"
- Rose Fitzgerald Kennedy