Her Son Kaden

73| Make Me Feel

"Go away and calm yourself."

Amelia's POV

My motorcycle rumbled as I drove down the road. I sighed and fought back the tears threatening to blur my vision. The sun had set and it was growing darker by the passing second.

"Noah." I said knocking on the door and after a moment or two it opened. A disheveled man stood there looking tired and when his eyes settled on me confusion came to his gaze.

"Amelia? Is everything okay?" He asked and I felt my throat tighten a little.

"Can I come in?" I asked and he quickly stepped aside.

I looked around the familiar house and sighed. I'd been here many times in the close past. Noah shut the door as I sat on his couch.

"What's wrong?" He asked as he made his way over, concern was etched into his frown.

"What did he do?" He asked and I felt a sob threaten to escape me. I didn't want to cry, but I could feel it coming.

"He keeps playing with me. One minute he hates me, the next he's kissing me and telling me not to leave him. I don't know what to do anymore, but I can barely be in the same room with him... I still love him Noah, I love him so fucking much." I broke off in a sob and buried my face in my hands.

I felt the couch move a bit as the man sat beside me and hugged me to him.

"He won't even let me mark him again. He's too hung up on Emma; she's dead. She's not gonna come back so why can't he just love me?" I cried and Noah hugged me tighter.

"I'm sorry Lia. I'm so sorry."  Noah groaned and laid his chin against my head, but I pulled away from him. Suddenly everything made me feel claustrophobic.

I glanced up at him and gasped, "Is it me? Am I that bad to be around?" Noah huffed and scowled at the ground, his jaw ticking.

"No Lia. You're perfect. Don't think that." Noah growled and watched me with pity laced eyes. He reached out and cupped my cheek in his hand.

"One of these days he's gonna realize how stupid he is baby, one of these days..." Noah sighed and I crawled into his lap.

"But he told me he loved me Noah, then he just... he just stopped caring. Suddenly Emma is everything and I'm not shit to him. I don't understand why he does this now. After I've given myself up to him, after everything we've been through, he chooses now to say 'fuck me' and now-- now I'm just some garbage he wants thrown away." I sobbed and ended up crying hysterically. Noah pulled me closer and ran a hand through my hair.

His warmth soaked into me and he rubbed my back soothingly, "You're not doing anything wrong. He's just a dumbass. Don't you think for a second that this is your fault." Noah growled and I laid my head against his shoulder.

"I mean you did go back to him again though." Noah said and I glared at him. He looked down at me and the playful light died.

"I'm teasing, sorry. Bad timing." He brushed the hair from my face and kissed my forehead softly. He then kissed all over my face and nudged me until I was chuckling softly and feeling much better.

"I hate you." I said with a soft smile and Noah kissed the side of my lips.

"Sure." He chuckled as he pulled away and gave me a smirk.