Lock And Load (Chicago P.D.)

Chapter 48

Horrible sobs leave my body as I collapse onto the ground, with the weight of Ray's dead body falling on top of me. I hear someone running down the wooden stairs and then Ray's body is lifted off of mine. I look up to see Dad crying almost as much as I am. I scramble into his fatherly embrace and after he's calmed me down for a few minutes he says, "Laynie, was that story true?"

I nod and say, "Of course it was. If I hadn't told him something true he would've seen right through it and it would be my brains on the floor instead of his."

We sit in silence for a few seconds before Dad says, "Oh Laynie honey, I'm so sorry. I should've been there for you, broken my promise and called you..."

I quickly cut him off by saying, "Dad, you did exactly what I wanted. If you had called it would've made it worse. All I wanted was to escape the grief and loss I was feeling after Mom passed for a few hours, and the drugs did that for me. There was nothing you could've done to change that. I had to learn the hard way and I did. I wanted to escape the pain so much for so long that I wasn't realizing how bad I was going to overdose.

"I woke up in the hospital two weeks later. All the doctors and nurses told me it was a nothing short of a miracle that I had survived an overdose that bad. After that I realized that if I didn't decide to get my own shit together I'd be dead before my next birthday. Once I was out of the hospital I self-admitted to a rehab centre and did treatment there. When I was clean I went and signed myself up as a candidate for the NCIS unit. When I made it I finally felt like I was doing Mom proud. So I know it's hard to believe, but it's a good thing you never called because there's a very good chance I wouldn't be here if you had."

Dad nods and quickly wipes away his tears. We embrace again and then he says, "Why did you never tell me all of this before?"

I sigh and reply, "I don't know Dad. I guess the thought never even occurred to me. After Camille was born I knew that part of my life was truly behind me for the first time. When I moved back home to Chicago those months were the furthest thing from what my life was then."

He nods and after we hug again, we go back upstairs. Everyone goes back to the district and I change into clean clothes before going home to my family, ready to put this last hour behind me.

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Hey guys! Sorry it's been so long but thanks for 37 200 reads!

So, what do you guys think of Chicago Justice so far? I'm finding it difficult to follow at times as I personally think they should take more than one episode for one case as everything is rushed and there is so little personal information about the characters that it isn't inspiring any story ideas for me.

And this leads into my next question, if I had a justice fanfic would you guys read it? I want to have a general idea of how many people would be interested for if I finally get an idea. -Becca