Can You Keep A Secret?

Chapter Eleven

-Liv's POV-

By the time Andy came back, it was so late – So late to the point that it stretched into the really early sector of time. It all feels the same when you're surrounded by darkness. I hadn't slept at all, and I had a feeling that Rye hadn't, either. He slipped in quietly, but it was still enough to make Mikey stir beside me.

He sensed that he wasn't the only one awake, and he whispered, "Andy Fovvs is back in town," before slipping back into his own bed. It was good to know that he was back, and able to walk on his own two feet this time, as well.

"Liv, you up?" Blair asked.

"Yeah," I whispered.

"Come speak with me outside," he said, and I started to worry again. What was so urgent that he needed to speak to me about it right exactly now? That it couldn't wait until morning? Maybe he was going to further explain what happened with Andy to me.

Once we got out, he started with, "Liv, I just want you to know how much we all appreciate having you here with us. All the boys love you to pieces." Despite it being compliments, my stomach started to turn – This wasn't going to end well. "But despite that fact, things are going to start to get real busy around here soon. We've got a show on Sunday, and after that we've got a tour to prepare for. I want these boys to be on the top of their game, no distractions."

"No relationships," I reached the conclusion myself.

"No, no, you know I support you dating Mikey 100%. By all means, keep dating. I know that you make each other happy. But, unfortunately, at this point, I think it would be best for everyone if...well, if you temporarily moved out of the flat."

I couldn't see how it would be best for me, but at the moment, I felt nothing at all – It was like my mind decided that the best and easiest way to get through it would be to get rid of emotions entirely.

"Okay." I said, my voice sounding as blank as I felt. I took out my phone to check train times to go back home. "There's one 3 hours from now, at 6am."

"You don't need to take the earliest one if you don't want to – You can take the time to say goodbye to the boys." I shook my head. I knew if I had to do that, I would burst into tears.

"Just tell them that I had to head back because of some family issues," I said, already turning around to go and pack up my stuff. Blair stopped me, resting his hand on my shoulder.

"I'm sorry it has to be like this." I simply nodded in response. I wandered around the flat, trying to find all my things, and it reminded me of how much time I'd spent here, how many memories I'd made. I tried to focus all of my attention on my steady heartbeat as I packed up my duffle – My shoes were under the bed, phone on the table, lipstick, oddly, in the kitchen,

One I was sure I'd found everything, I took one last look around more than the room. I would be missing these boys. They were all asleep – Even Rye had his eyes closed at this point. I kissed Mikey softly on his cheek and then left the flat, for what I was hoping with all that I had wasn't the last time.