depressing thoughts

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6/4/17

"You look like trash"

  "You look ugly"

"Your an embarrassment"

"What are people going to think of you?
Looking like trash next to me."

"You have nicer clothes go out those on instead of looking like a fucking idiot"

"Disgusting"

"You didn't even style your hair! You look so disgusting"

"Id rather not go then to be seen with you"

"Fat and ugly"

"They will think we are poor because of you"

"I swear you need a fucking psychiatrist because you look so ugly"

"I can't be seen with you"

These were a few of the words that had been thrown at me today by a family member.
because I decided to wear pants and a collared shirt while they wore an ugly dress.
I don't wanna live anymore.
I look ugly.
I'm fat.
Disgusting.
Too fat.
Too tan.
My hair is ugly.
My teeth are ugly.
My eyes are ugly.
I am ugly.
I am ugly.
u g l y
horrifying to look at.
I'm a disgusting human being.
no one deserves to see me.
I'm a burden.
I don't wanna eat anymore.
I'm sick of this feeling.
This constant feeling of worthlessness.
The constant reminder I will never be worth anything.
I'm disgusting.
No one will ever love me.
I'm ugly.
I want to kill myself
-entry time: 2:14pm