depressing thoughts

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8/23/18
I think he's finally gonna do it
he's gonna
break up
with me
I can just feel it....
and I'm so scared
I don't want it to end
I don't want my happiness to end
something has been on his mind
and he said he doesn't wanna tell me
Until he knows for sure what he's thinking
I'm scared
he told me it has nothing to do with me
but what if he doesn't want me to worry
I'm scared
he is the best thing in my life
and without him
I am nothing
I have nothing
I don't want to be alone again
I don't want to be heart broken
Things haven't been well between me and him
it's my fault
It's always my fault
Im scared out of my mind
there's a sharp pain in my chest
my head feels so constructed and it hurts
I cant imagine
a life without him
it's scary
because I know I can't live without him
and I'm not saying the stereotypical saying
I cannot stay alive without him
he got me to stop so many things
he made me into a better person
if he leaves me....
I don't know what I'm gonna do
I'm scared
I am going to cry now
because that's all I know how to do.
cry.
Maybe I was too clingy
Too needy
Too ugly
Too fat
Too mean
Maybe I was simply too much
I am constantly telling him my problems
Maybe he's tired of it?
I know I would if I was him.....
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
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I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
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I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
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I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry I've been just a burden on him
I want too much
that is on me
for wanting so much
out of one person
I feel horrible
For not being good enough

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