depressing thoughts

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7/21/17

   disgusted.

   I feel so disgusted right now. My throats feels like it's closing. I want to throw up. I am that disgusted.

I am disgusting
I am ugly

I am beyond ugly

I am a form so horrendous to look at.
I am not even human at this point. I'm just a disgusting living thing. No purpose in this world only just to serve of the reminder to not be me.

I'm fat and ugly.
I'm crying right now. I want to be thin. To be beautiful. My goal is to weight 90 pounds. I want to be skinny.

That is true beauty.

My face is hideous but that is something I cannot change.

I need to fix my weight. I need to stop eating. I need to throw up

I need to throw up now

I feel so disgusted right now.

I want to die.

    -entry time: 11:56pm