depressing thoughts

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5/20/18

I've been skipping lunch this week
I lost 3 pounds
So
yeah....
it does work
now I wonder how much more do I have to skip in order to loose
more

On a different note,
I
am so
stupid and annoying
I'm scared
of annoying him or getting on his nerves
I just don't want to be a bother
And that's all I feel like I am right now
it hurts
I can feel my whole body just
sad
my heart feels so heavy
I want to apologize but it only makes things worse
sometimes I don't want to go up to him
because I'm afraid
to annoy
or bother
I love him
I love him so fucking much
but
I don't want to bother him
I feel like right now
all I do is bother
I know he loves me
but I can see it in his eyes
he gets this
sad look sometimes
maybe it's my fault
maybe he doesn't want to have me around him so much
I am always fucking things up
I think it would be best to give him some space
let him have a break from
me.....
not as in breaking up that's
I cant image that
I just need to give him
personal space
yeah.....
I'm
hurt
I cant fix it
there's nothing I can do to fix it

entry time: 1:37pm