depressing thoughts

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6/25/17

   Does such a god exist?

That question has been drifting in my mind from some time now.

I am not a really religious person, I find it a waste a time but others see it as hope.
An imaginary hope.

But nevertheless it's some kind of promising hope.

maybe it's just a coincidence.

Yes it's just that.

I am not special.

It was merely ironic.

The events that occurred today.

  I had gone to church (for my family is strictly religious and it's annoying/stupid) today this morning.

I felt as terrible as ever.

I wasn't paying attention until I started hearing disturbing sentence coming out of the priests mouth.

Today the readings had been about how people think there is more bad then good in their life.

The priest did the whole preaching thing about it.

But it was a bit scary.

It talked about how even if your family treats you wrong you still have good times with them.

That even if so much in your life is going wrong there is always good in the world.

Was this his doing.

Did god, any god, respond to me?

who knows

I certainly do not.

  -entry time:5:00pm