depressing thoughts

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10/1/18
SPOOKY SEASON HAS BEGUN
and started off to a good/bad start 🎃

Good- I remember a series of dreams about b.n That made me feel so good.
I realize I've been having these dreams where I lay with him
Him hugging me or me hugging him in silence
beautiful silence
It's mostly as if we are going to sleep
I just feel so loved when his arms are around me
In this dream I got a bit sad
he seemed like he was too tired to hug me
so I unwrapped myself from him and stared at him
His eyes were so calming to me
I could feel his energy, his tiredness
I turned around and got sad
I didn't want him to cuddle me if he was tired
I heard him mumble something and he wrapped his arm around me
I cried a little bit
I loved the feeling of being loved
Of being in his arms
He was so close to me
he was so warm
he wanted to be close to me.
I've never felt so happy

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