My Story: R.M.S Titanic [Completed]

34: Children

After an hour of Scott playing with the Johnston children and myself speaking with Eliza, Scott and I returned to the Promenade Deck so we can let the Johnstons relax and enjoy some time as a family. I kept thinking about what Eliza said about talking about children with Scott.

"Mae, is something bothering you?" Scott asked. I realised that I had assumed that he wanted children but I didn't know for sure that he wanted to work for children.

"Scott, how do you feel about children?" I asked as I stopped and held the wooden rail as I looked out to the water. He stood next to me and I gripped the deck.

"Depends on what you mean. I did enjoy playing with Catherine and William today," he said. I looked at the water then back at the horizon.

"I mean of our own," I told him. He looked at me and I kept my eyes on the horizon. He chuckled and I looked over at him as he ran his hand through his hair.

"That is something to speak of before we get married, ain't it?" he asked. I could hear his third class accent from America as he spoke. I figured his accent only comes out when he forces it out or he is under stress.

"It is something that we need to discuss before our marriage," I told him. He stared at me and I played with my hands.

"Well, do you wanna have children?" he asked. I sighed.

"That is something that I always wanted to enjoy," I said. He looked conflicted as I looked at him.

"I am just scared that I will lose you," he said as he held my chin and ran his thumb across my cheek. I smiled into it as I closed my eyes.

"Scott," I said as I opened my eyes, "I promised not to leave you." He put his hands on the railing and looked at the water.

"Most of my family has been committed to the sea because I didn't have the means to bury them in New York. I don't want to commit you to the sea," he told me. I looked at him and remembered the night full of sin that I shared with him and how his scent filled my senses. He had a musky sea scent.

"I have been committed to the sea," I told him. He looked at me with concern in his green eyes. "You. You will always be my ocean." He held my face and I looked up the six inches to his eyes from my height.

"And you will always be my land," he whispered. I smiled and he kissed my lips. "And we will need our sky, which would only be accomplished by children in our lives." I felt my smile get wider and I cupped his face.

"You are the best thing that I could have ever asked for in my eighteen years of life on this Earth and I don't know how I deserved you," I whispered to him and he moved the wisps of hair out of my face.

"You stayed solid throughout the rough waters. That is what land is," he said. "Water, it's unpredictable, if the land wasn't there, I am willing to bet that the water would never be steady and cause storms every day." He took my arm and we started walking again.

"Are you sure that you want to have children?" I asked. I watched his expression as he smiled and looked at me as he pulled me closer to him.

"I do. I realise that I have to hold on to what the future holds and you clearly want children therefore I want children," he said. I smiled and he let go of my arm. I looked at him confused and he raised his eyebrows. "You might want to run," he commented and I took off and he followed. We laughed and other people gave us weird looks as we ran around.

"Wait a moment," I said as I started to feel light head. He held my arm and I smiled at him. He sat me on the deck chair that was the closest to us.

"I should have thought about the fact that you aren't use to the water, like I am. We need you to stay healthy if we want strong healthy children," he said. I laughed at him and he kissed my cheek.

"You are so stupid," I said and he hugged me close to his body.

"You are the idiot that wants to have children with me," he said and I laughed as he looked out to the water.

"I love you and your humour," I told him and he laughed with me.