Undeniable/ Shawn Mendes

Part 47

Jeanine:

We were on our way back to Shawn's apartment after the froyo, that's a few minute drive from my hotel.

I rolled down the window and rested my head on my arms as I looked out, feeling the wind blowing through my hair.

"Jeanine. Before we go inside I just want to tell you." Shawn said as we pulled up in the parking lot of his apartment building. "Yeah, what's up?" I asked and he took my hand in his.

This is what I've been waiting for. For him to open up to me, tell me what's bothering.

"I'm afraid." He whispered, looking down at out hands. What is he afraid of? He doesn't have to be afraid, no matter what it is. "About?" I asked, smiling reassuringly at him after he looked up at my, his eyes locking in mine.

I saw the sadness and insecurity in his eyes.

"Of you." He said and I furrowed my eyebrows together in confusion.

Why is he afraid of me? I won't harm him.

"Shawn? I don't understand." I said and he smiled faintly. "Why are you afraid of me?" I asked, pulling my hand out of his. This is making me sad.

I don't understand why he's afraid of me.

"Because I'm me. Okay. People are seeing us together and I don't want them to hate on you. And you're growing on me. You're the first and last thing I think about when I wake up and got to sleep." He said and I looked down at my lap.

"Then what are you afraid of?" I asked and he chuckled, making me look up at him. "God Jeanine." He said resting his head back against the seat. "I'm afraid of losing you!" He said and I smiled.

Feeling my cheeks burning at what he just said. "You're not gonna lose me." I said and kissed his cheek before getting out of the car.

"Common." I said opening his door and he smiled, stepping out. Just as I was about to walk in he grabbed my hand and pulled me into a hug.

"Thank you for accepting me for who I am." I said, pulling away a bit to look him in the eyes. "I should be thanking you for not making it weird about being in MY life." He laughed.

We walked in to his apartment and saw Brian busy playing video games on the couch. "No way! You have the new FIFA game!" I exclaimed and rushed over to the couch. "You play FIFA?" Shawn asked and I laughed.

"Me and Nick use to play it all the time back in LA." I said and Brian handed me a remote as we started playing.

Shawn sat next to me on the couch, watching my every move.

And every now and then when I look over to him, he smiles a big smile, making me blush.