Undeniable/ Shawn Mendes

Part 86

Shawn:

I didn't expect her to be here.

Nor to see her again before tomorrow's event. But those words, her glare, her tears, her broken state... it hurt me.

Seeing her like that and knowing we both caused each other so much pain, misery and confusion.

It breaks me.

"Well... that was uhm... awkward." Ryan said, chuckling lightly as he scratched the nape of his neck. I looked at him before running past him and out the door.

"Jeanine!" I yelled as I saw her walking down the driveway. "Leave me alone Shawn." She said, continuing walking. I rushed up to her and grabbed onto her waist.

"Your words hurt." I said once she stopped. "Like yours." She said, sassy. "If your game is to get back at me for the way I hurt you Jeanine... that's no way of getting through a battle." I said and she sighed.

I saw her eyes sparkling as tears formed in them. She covered up her face with her hands and I heard her sniffing. I pulled her closer to me, holding her in my arms.

I don't care what comes of this, I still love her and I'm always gonna be here for her.

"I don't know what I'm doing." She cried. "Why did you say that? Did you really mean it? That life was better before I came along?" I asked, feeling how my heart tears more, just by saying and thinking those words again.

"No. Yes. Maybe... uhg, I don't know." She said after pulling out of my embrace. "Of course the time we had together was fun, but the minute we separate it all becomes hard. Then we face reality, the hate and confusion. I don't want to fight with you Shawn. It breaks me. It breaks my heart to be apart form you and to know that we can't be." She cried.

I cupped her cheeks and her eyes locked on mine. "I want a life with you Jeanine. No matter how hard it must be for us to be together. I don't care about the world approving us, because I approve us. And all I want is to be with you." I said and she took my one hand in hers.

"Why don't you just find yourself another girl?" She asked, and I smiled form ear to ear. I don't want to find another girl because I only want her.

"Because I love you." I said. Emphasizing her. "But I don't love you." She said, making me chuckle as she stepped away from me. "Stop lying to yourself Jeanine. It's only making it harder for you." I laughed.

"And how will you know I'm lying?" She asked, being her own stubborn self again, crossing her arms over her chest trying to look intimidating but I see right through her.

"Because your eyes change colour when you lie. You fiddle with the necklace around your neck because your nervous that someone might sense you're lying. I know you Jeanine." I said, walking up to her again and taking her hand in mine.