Undeniable/ Shawn Mendes

Part 92

Shawn:

That dream was something I never want to dream, experience or have come to life ever.

I dreamt about her leaving me again, breaking my heart. But that was more forced than the thing with Nate. She started with self harming and drinking after we got together.

I dreamt about her getting in a crash and not waking up. All my fans hated on her and she took everything to heart. She believed the things they said, she believed the things she said and thought.

That's why I woke up and asked her if I did the right thing with asking her to be mine. Because I don't want that to happen to her. I want her to be happy with me.

Because I'm happy with her.

God I love her so much, that sometimes I get so frustrated because I can't describe it. And both me and Jeanine are people who love using words. Not even she can describe it when I ask her to tell me how much she loves me.

That's our little joke.

I went in the shower after Jeanine and quickly washed up. When I got out I got dressed in my sweatpants because we still need to eat breakfast before officially getting dress for the event.

I got out but Jeanine wasn't in the room. I heard my music blasting from upstairs and I laughed, knowing she must be upstairs making breakfast with Ryan.

When I walked into the kitchen I saw them dancig and singing with spatulas whilst making pancakes. I rested against the wall, putting my hands in my pockets as I watched them jumping around. They really are the best of friends.

"Oh my god Shawn!" Ryan said and laughed nervously. He still hasn't gotten to the point in his mind that I'm in his house. Actually. He still doesn't believe it. "Damn boy put a shirt on or my boy Ryan will faint!" Jeanine said and threw me my hoodie that she had on.

"Can I talk to you for a second?" I asked, taking her hand in mine and she nodded, putting the spatula down and walking with me just around the corner of the kitchen. "What's u-" but I cut her off by cupping her cheeks and placing my thumbs over her lips.

"Shhh. Don't say anything." I said and looked around the corner, just to see if Ryan is still busy. I felt her smiling and I looked back down at her, smiling at her. "Are we gonna do it?" I asked, serious as hell right now and she nodded, lacing her arms around my neck.

"Without a doubt." She whispered.

Me and Jeanine are running off, but only to get away for a bit, not permanently. Like we planned. "Is that all or..." she said, biting down on her lip, knowing she'll drive me crazy. I shook my head.

"Oh. Not? Then what do you want?" She whispered, playing with the hair at the back of my neck. "You." I said caressing her cheek before pressing my lips to hers. I pushed her up against the wall, gently and loving as I cupped both her cheeks, kissing her passionately.

"Breakfast is rea- oh. I see you already got your breakfast huh?" Ryan said coming around the corner and I quickly pulled away from Jeanine.

She smiled with her cheeks glowing red as I looked at Ryan who's wiggling his eyebrows up and down at me.

My cheeks now burning red as well.