dizzy - thoughts & stuff

worried asf

so atl is (was) doing two concerts, one tonight and one tomorrow, which is mine, and they had to cancel today's because the air conditioning broke. i don't blame them, it's florida, it feels ocer 100° outside, it would have been a danger to them and the fans and everyone really. i feel so bad for the people who were supposed to go tonight like fuck man that would suck more than anything in the world.

and it could still happen to me?? like they said that mine is still going to happen and that the air conditioning was getting fixed all day today but what if its not ready in time?? what if it's worse than they think?? what if something goes wrong??? i swear if my show gets cancelled i'm going to be devastated this is the only thing i've been excited for, the only thing i've been looking forward to, in so so long

there's a v small chance it'll get cancelled but i feel like i have to prepare for disappointment in case it does since it's such a big deal, if that makes any sense

^ this made me laugh tho tbh

alSO,,,, we left the fucking tickets at home. of course. so now we have to reprint them, which isn't too big of a deal since we had to get copies of my drawing anyways, but still

thinking on the positive side though, i'm going to meet all time low in less than 24 hours??? my idols??? the loves of my life???? holy fuck?????????

i wanna write on the back of the drawing just a lil note for them and sign it but i don't want my dad to read it and i know he definitely will force me to show it to him if i do so idkkk

but like omgomgomg i'm not r e a d y

mkay sorry i'm just so so nervous but excited at the same time like idek what to do with myself

so today we went to lunch with my aunts at my favorite restaurant that i haven't been to in years, went to my aunts house after and saw their doggos, and then checked in at the hotel which also has a waterpark and we played there for a bit on the waterslides and all and then some of my grandparents (that i don't like tbh oops) came over and we walked around the shops and stuff, looked at the orlando eye but didn't go on it (i don't fuck w ferris wheels especially not that big) and went to this museum of skeletons??? it was really cool tbh bc i'm a nerd but they had a whole human skeleton, bear skeleton, and the skull of a whale, which was 11 feet tall and weighted 880 pounds, which is precisely why i'm so scared of the ocean. they also had boxes full of animal penis bones (all for sale), which my mom and i laughed about for like ten minutes. and that was all just in the gift shop, not even the actual museum

b y e

a sequence of photos displaying the struggle of getting a selfie with my aunts' dog, also named hannah

i'm gonna try and get some sleep, wish me luck with tomorrow please and thank. i love you all ❤