dizzy - thoughts & stuff

there's no point to this lol

***there's mentions of blood later on so if you don't handle that kind of stuff well please just skip this***

look at this fuckin rat lmaoo my mom shaved her and she looks desgu s t an g

i was listening to entertainment agaIN!! but my speaker started making these really loud crackling noises and it was scaring me so i had to stop

but i looked up the lyrics to crybaby bc im deaf asf and couldn't tell what he said after nothing nothing good comes from late night thinking and turns out its "don't you don't you know that its gloom boy season"

or something and basically fuck me up the ass because gloom boys is still my favorite there's never gonna be anything thats gonna change that

my favorite author (on here) keeps like. replying to my comments and stuff and literally if it happens one (1) more time im gonna implode

same one thats written on my message board twice and i ju S t

ok i started writing this this morning and and then my mom called us out there to scream at us about how we should all be cleaning and how she's sick of asking for help (she hadn't said anything about cleaning all morning at all) and never getting any and so ive been cleaning ever since

my parents room is the messiest grossest one in the whole house and i would say mine is probably the cleanest, but all my siblings got sent to clean my parents room for them while they went out shopping. and ill probably be blamed for the whole rest of the house being a mess and my siblings who did nothing the whole time won't be in trouble at all

i just love how "asking for help" in my moms eyes is screaming at us about how ungrateful we are and ordering us to clean everything including her messes while she sits around

my siblings have done nothing but scream at each other and me and they haven't gotten a single thing done and they're such brats and i genuinely hate them so much at least 90% of the time and im so sick of them and this house and my parents and of everyone except for like one person and i can't go to them rn even if i wanted to bc idk where they are

i feel sick rn, everything hurts, im nauseous, i nearly picked up two roaches and had to kill them,

*this is the blood*

i dropped a glass jar on the floor (bc there was a fucking roach on it) and it broke and didn't get it all swept up and then stepped on a piece and cut my foot open and it bled all over the floor and just askfkfkkf

*blood over*

im so done tbh i've hardly done any of the hw i missed yet bc my mom made us all clean and all i wanna do is cry (been doing that though) and sleep which ill probably do now

ily all, take care of yourselves

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song recommendation: peach by waterparks