dizzy - thoughts & stuff

yikesss

im literally trying so hard not to cry in the middle of school rn like ??? can i just stop being an over emotional sensitive piece of garbage for like.. 2 seconds that would be great

ik i said i wasnt gonna be negative on here anymore but like id rather post it here than bother the people i love w it so

i was already in a bad mood last night so that kind of carried into today and then all my teachers are reallyyy trying me haha like they keep yelling at me for being on my phone when they never care and literally we weren't even doing anything important. my chem teacher yelled at me,, and she was talking about m a r g a r i n e. fucking BUTTER. ugh

but mostly its bc im worthless piece of shit who never does anything but make life worse for the people i love. and if i dont make it worse i do absolutely nothing to make it better. im completely and totally useless when people need help, i never know what to do, even when i try its never good enough. im never good enough. and thats not other people having high standards its just me being the worst you can get. and like i literally hate myself so much for that. bc i genuinely love people so much but i can never do anything to help anyone. i just want to make everyone feel better and i cant because im useless

and im really sorry if youve ever come to me for help and been disappointed when i couldn't do anything for you, i promise i try its just im really bad at it

i just wanna go home and sleep forever and never have to wake up or talk to anyone i just want to be completely isolated from everyone. everyone would be better off that way anyways. everyone would be better off if i just wasnt even here lmao

but no such luck

im sorry for being negative, but i needed to get it out. ily all

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song recommendation: my sweet summer by the dirty heads