dizzy - thoughts & stuff

rant

im in such a shitty mood tbh sorry the only things i post in here are either negative or about mikey but like tbh that's my life lmao like those are my only moods

but like im so sick of my parents lately and esp how they've been treating me compared to my siblings like my sisters have been to like 4 bday parties in the past couple weekends and ive done nothing but lay around, which actually isn't my fault for once bc every time i ask to do something i get told no. like i just asked to go to ashley's house for a couple hours and my dad was like no we're busy.

like ok good for u ronald im glad u think sitting there playing call of duty until ur only friend gets here is being "busy" but like u could take ur daughter to her friend that lives literally 10 minutes away lmao

the past two nights both my mom and my dad have just disappeared to some fuckin vape bar for like the whole night. friday night they left and got back like an hour and a half Iater than they said they'd be home. they came back w a pizza and i was like oh okay at least they brought dinner but then my dad's like "oh no this is ours you should've eaten already" eaten fuckin what ronald? there is no food bc you guys won't go to the store we have like three cans of beans, half a loaf of stale bread and one piece of american cheese like wh a t do you expect us to eat??? (im exaggerating but like ugH)

the second night they had already been gone all day bc guEsS whAT my sisters had a bday party to go to. and then they finally went to the store and just bought a shit ton of junk food thanks guys (sarcasm) and they got back, put the groceries away, then were like "ok bye have fun kids" and went to the vape bar the rest of the day

so fuck that

also ive been trying to clean my room all day and they've been yelling at me to clean the house bc we have people coming over but like. if my siblings' rooms are dirty they get excused from cleaning the house and get to go mess around and not even clean while i bust my ass cleaning the rest of the house. but heaven forbid i get one hour (not even, like 40 minutes max) to actually clean my room. that's not allowed why would it be. so ive had to also clean the house

idk where tf mikey's been but like he texted me once this morning then not at all the rest of the day lmao n like he'll probably read this so like,, dude what the fuck lmao

so like not only am i in a shitty mood but like the one thing that could possibly make it better has been gone all day. i mean he usually is bc he's busy 25/8 so its fine i'm used to it but like idk he said he would be able to talk today but ig not (:

sorry ik people don't like to listen to other people complain about their relationships online but like no one's asking you to read this or say anything, i just need a place to be mad, so if you wanna ignore it then pls do

im gonna shutup and go listen to angsty music and do hw

here's some pics of animals from vet lately to make up for it