dizzy - thoughts & stuff

requests?

i was gonna watch riverdale but i'm actually not in the mood, i'm hardly ever in the mood to watch tv tbh

but i am however in the mood to draw but idk what to do so lemme know if you guys have anything you wanna see i mean i'll do most things probably (please request i am bored)

wow that was real specific great job

i'm not gonna do a whole rant tbh i don't have the energy bc my anger has passed but i'll describe today

today has been trashy, i went to this dumb open house at school, idek why

i went w/o my parents which was a bad fucking idea to begin with because i'm literally so dependent like its bad i can't do anything for myself in a social setting, and so i was in a place i didn't know at all, with people i barely knew as my only guidance, tons of people i didn't know at all as well, and they didn't have my schedule either so i didn't know where i was going (i can tell my classes online but that doesn't have building and room numbers) i ended up by myself without anyone i knew even vaguely, in a huge crowd of people, not knowing where to going and i started freaking out

i don't have anxiety or claustrophobia or anything but still i started panicking and idk just wasn't a fun experience, i didn't find out where my classes were which was the whole point in going. eventually my dad got there tho and i got a locker so that's good i suppose.

i went to open it to make sure there was nothing inside and make sure the lock worked and everything and there was this girl at the one next to mine w her mom and they were both obviously struggling to get it open and had been for a bit and i just kinda looked at my combo real quick and then popped my lock open in 3 seconds and the look on the girls face was so funny like you would've thought i was a god or something it was great

but then my parents got in a little fight and when i got home my mom was crying so that stressed me out and then my dad and i had to fix the air conditioning, which has been working on and off the past week or so. basically we gotta vacuum water out from somewhere like once a day rn, which sounds easy enough, except that its in the attic, and my dad has to climb up there and vacuum it all up and then hand the vacuum down to me, mind you water is fucking heavy and this is a big vacuum, and the water also smells really bad and the past few times only a little has splashed on me but this time the lid fucking comes off on the vacuum and the entire container just falls all the way down from the attic and nasty ass smelly ass water splashes all over me and spills all over the garage floor like a solid inch of it, this giant ass puddle. and then we have to make another trip ofc except he doesnt wait for me to get back to help him get it down and so it drops again and theres more water all over and just fhsnsksl i hated it so much ugh

my dad says it should be fine now but if i have to do that one more time i swear to fucking god i'm moving out i'm so over it

but its alright now bc i watched the new dan and phil video to calm down and all is now okay

so anyways :)))))) this turned into a rant but i hope you all had a wonderful day, ily very much!

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recommended song : lose it by swmrs

(this was -sushitrash-'s idea thank for letting me use it)