dizzy - thoughts & stuff

sad all the time

mad all the time? lol who's that i only know sadness

but fr im p sad for no reason rn idk why its just like can my brain fucking chill for one god damn minute ugh

normally i'd just go to bed or nap or eat bc sleeping and eating are how i "solve" my problems bc i'm a piece of garbage, but i can't sleep bc my parents are away from home so i have to keep my siblings mostly alive and i can't eat bc there's no food

we're finally home and i'm so glad we are it feels so nice to be back but since the power was out the majority of the time we were gone, everything in both fridges went bad and we had to throw away literally everything. my dad tried to find food on his way home from work but two problems with that
a) nowhere has any bc everything spoiled or has been taken and new stock hasn't been delivered
b) we are broke as balls now bc of all the hotels and gas and eating out we've been using the past week

so yay.

i posted some new art i'm really proud of on my art book so please go check that out, it features awsten so that's a plus

sorry i've been so inactive and not really replying its just been a stressful week and i haven't really felt up to any kind of human interaction even when we did have service. i'm completely available now tho and everything should be back to normal now

and thank you for 100 followers, ik its not really a lot but it seems like it to me, especially since i don't actually write lmfao

we're also almost at 2k read on here which is crazy why do people read this bs

ily all and i hope you're safe

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song recommendation: miranda beach by COIN