dizzy - thoughts & stuff

technology

i think it's really funny when people say that technology is ruining our generation because i'm not sure if i disagree or agree with them

the other day my teacher read us an article about how phones have increased the depression and suicide rate in teens and how they increase feelings of loneliness and cause teens to have less friends than before

sometimes i feel like the only friends i have are because of my phone, but i can't help but think that there's some truth to the increase in loneliness statement

it's a lot easier to text and tell someone how you feel by writing it out than saying it in person and i've almost forgotten how to talk to someone normally. i have a friend who prefers to call rather than text and i think that's the first person my age i've ever come across with that preference, and i'm not that surprised

so maybe it means that i talk to people in real life less than i do over the internet, that's true

but the other part of me is tempted to say what's wrong with that? no one in real life has ever been there for me when i'm crying and needed someone to talk to and no one in real life is going to share my tastes in music, books, movies, etc, at least for now

and maybe someday someone like that will come along but until then how can you blame me for turning to my phone to talk to people that i actually click with and care about instead of making small talk with someone who i call my in real life best friend but barely have anything in common with

but then there's the other side of me that once again says that maybe my phone really is bringing me down or putting some kind of weight on me

i spend probably 90% of my free time on my phone watching videos or reading things that are supposed to make me laugh but barely have an effect anymore, and i'm not saying this to be relatable or funny but it is depressing that all i do is rely on this thing to keep me going because i can't do it myself anymore

so i'm not saying phones are good or bad, i'm just saying i wish that i could find the motivation to put mine down and do something else, i wish that the fact that someone hasn't texted me much recently wasn't enough to ruin my mood

but it is how it is i suppose

ily all and i hope this wasn't too sad, here's some really fucking funny pictures of boomer to fix that

my personal fave hes such a cutie

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song recommendation: last young renegade by all time low