dizzy - thoughts & stuff

ed!!!

oh??? my gosh??? ed sheeran is officially the cutest person alive??????

i would like to personally apologize for all the times that i have said that although i love him he's not attractive at all, because i was i n c o r r e c t

like he's literally so smiley and giggly and cute and like??? he had to stop and force himself to stop smiling a few times so he could keep talking like he was so cute omg i just i can't

also after every song he'd just have the biggest smile and would say "thank you" in the cutest tiniest voice ever ohmygoodness??? like all my mom and i did the whole ride home was say thank you back and forth bc we legit could not get over how cute he was

but on a more serious note, i'm literally so impressed by him???? he did everything by himself???? literally every fucking thing? it was just him and a guitar, two mics, and some loop pedals and that's it. like that's all it was no band or backing or anything he just????? wow???? i just can't believe he got up there and performed so well all by himself for over an hour with no help like i'm so proud of him i love

i was not prepared for the high notes. there were so many parts where he would sing v high and i just m e l t e d like ohmygod i can't. for anyone who doesn't know, guys singing in high voices (and actually pulling it off) is like my kink like h o l y f u c k i don't think there's anything more attractive than that tbh like i literally just like fold the fuck in on myself idek if i'm breathing rn bc i wasn't ready for him to sing like that

i wasn't expecting him to be bad, but i also wasn't expecting him to be as good as he was??? like i'm genuinely shocked at just how good his voice actually is irl, even though i never doubted it. he's really just so talented

a team started playing and i almost cried,,, that's my favorite i love it sm

and bloodstream is another fave and give me love too and he played both of those so that was lit

yall already know i yelled all the words to don't and got hella pumped for sing too tbh

this concert was a lot different, it wasn't like the atl concert where everyone was standing and packed like sardines and everyone could scream as loud as they wanted and such but it was nice in it's own way like we were in this suite thing (i'll try and post some pictures tomorrow of everything) that's just this room that's a balcony and my mom's work owns it or something so that's where we were sitting, and although we weren't very close we did have quite a good view

ofc the atl show was better by a long shot but this exceeded my expectations by a long shot, it was so much fun

there was this girl a row in front of me and a few seats to the left wearing a lyr jacket???? like think about that for a second. among thousands of people, at an ed sheeran concert for god sake, i somehow managed to sit 5 feet away from a girl wearing a lyr jacket. what are the fucking odds. it would have been one thing if it was another punk show but like,, an ed sheeran concert???

so i ofc needed to talk to her but like i'm really shy so i had no idea how to approach that so all through the concert (my mom noticed her jacket and pointed it out to me right after james blunt i think) i was trying to figure out how i would get her attention i was like do i just yell all time low or do i yell the leg thing or do i sing the beginning of dear maria or what and eventually i just settled on yelling "JACK BARAKAT"

it worked lmao like she whipped the fuck around, eyes all wide, shook asf looking and i don't blame her bc again, what are the odds. i wanted to like get her number and be friends but i left without doing that bc i didn't know how to ask sadly :(

it was still really cool to meet her though so that's good

ed took his shoes off and threw them in the crowd??? lmfao like he went on a rant for a minute about how they were the "ugliest fucking shoes" he's ever seen and that the only reason he had them was bc they made him wear them to the vmas (i'm so proud of him for winning you go bby) and so he was like here just have them and threw them out there, to two different people. he suggested that since they couldn't wear them as a pair, they should use them as cup holders and that that would be "fabulous"

and then he did like a fake last song of the night and left and then came back out on stage wearing a tampa bay lightning jersey with his name on it (the arena he was playing at was that hockey teams like home whatever the fuck) and ofc everyone lost their shit when that happened lol but he threw that out into the crowd as well and that i would have actually killed a man to have gotten

i got this shirt though!!!

(sorry i'm honestly too tired to fix it like its legit just the divide symbol w his name in it that's all) and its got all the locations on the back so that's lit

i'm not going to school bc it's 1 in the morning rn and i have to wake up at 5 so that wouldn't make for literally anything good at all lmao

i am so tired. goodnight and i love you all so much!!!

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song recommendation: the a team by ed sheeran ❤