ROSE

11. Gone

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All what I decided to do for Anthony was a good idea, until I realized that he isn't trying anymore.

I didn't see him for the past week and it somehow made me sad. Everyday I'd go and wait in front of my locker for him to come and talk to me but he never came and when I went to see if the locker that he hit before, someone else opened it and I had to walk away awkwardly. I know that somehow it was my fault and I was really mad at myself for treating him badly but again, I didn't do something so bad and if he wanted to get close, he will come around again, Rita told me that.

Today Rita, Tia and I decided to meet tomorrow at one of our house and have a girls night since it's Friday but I didn't feel like it. I wanted to go home and be alone, not because I'm sad or anything, just because I wanted to be alone.

Because I'm sad.

I refused to think about it though, it is tomorrow so I will think about it tomorrow after class.

I groaned. Yes, I am because I pushed him away for no reason and ignored him twice when all he did was help me and be with me when I needed help. He didn't do anything bad to me and my thank you for him was a push-away.

Yeah, that's probably why I hate thinking about it because somehow, my mind always puts the blame on me. Yes, okay, maybe I'm wrong for overreacting but it is his fault from the beginning to judge me and my phone.

I'm being childish again.

I grabbed my phone, debating on calling Anthony or not but decided not to. We never talked on the phone and I didn't want our first one to be awkward. He for sure is mad at me so meeting him will be better. But, I have one small problem, he is nowhere to be found. I looked for him yesterday and today and he wasn't there.

I went to my locker, waited for him but he was nowhere to be found. I basically used to see him everyday in this area but I can't see him now, not this whole week. Maybe he doesn't want to be seen. I sighed and decided to leave.

The rest of the day was really boring, maybe because all I did was think of where he could be. Why isn't he using his normal locker again? And why isn't he around? Why didn't he tell me that he was mad?

But again I didn't tell him I was mad either so he probably think I'm trying to just ignore him. Well, I am, but I have a reason. A stupid one but it's still a reason.

And all of sudden, I felt like a terrible person. I didn't mean for it to bee understood like that but also, I can't help it. What happened happened and I just need to find him now and apologize.

Or make him apologize.

Okay, that's not the point right now. I just need to find him first.

But the next morning when I got in college and went to look for him next to the lockers again, he wasn't there. I groaned. I'm tired of searching. Can't he just pass by me one time?

I got in my class and realized that this is probably the most boring class I have of the whole semester. The teacher talks like Siri and it's making me fall asleep. I barely followed what she said. Or maybe because I was busy thinking about something else? I don't know.

Walking out of my class, the corridor was really loud and when I looked up, I saw a bunch of boys with the same colour shit and shorts and soccer shoes. They are a soccer team. One of them hit the other on his head so he turned around and hit him back. I tried to hide my smile that creeped on my lips by biting my lip, I felt like I was watching a bunch of kids fighting in middle school.

But my smile went away as soon as I saw Anthony walking along with them. I gulped and without thinking, I was hurrying behind them and calling his name. Maybe a little loud that I caught everyone's eyes, along with his.