ROSE

44. Emotional

A N T H O N Y
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It has been seven days.

It has been seven days since the last time I talked her. Yes, I kept count of the days because every day passes as if it has been a whole entire year. It has been seven days since I hugged her and has her close to me. It has been seven days since the argument we had, since she picked to leave me just because she's not strong. I let out a small laugh at the thought of her stupid excuse and took few more sips of probably the fifth bottle. I don't know, I didn't care enough to count, all I know is that with every bottle I finish, my head feels heavier and it gets harder for my eyes to stay opened. But I was enjoying every bit of it because the more I drink, the more my brain stops thinking.

"No more." Kade grabbed the bottle from my hand and walked away. Standing up to go and get it back, I tripped on the line of bottles that were set next to the couch, where I was laying. I knocked them all down.

"Give...back...give them back." I tried to say a good sentence, as I tried to keep myself up on my feet.

"Jeez, how much more can you take?" Steph said and I gave her a warning look. She put her hands up in defense and shook her head to hide her stupid smirk she had on, going back to smoking her joint.

I got pushed back when I stood up from the couch so I fell back down. Or maybe nobody pushed me and I just fell on my own. I got up after a lot of fails and walked to where the rest of the bottles are and took one then slowly walked back to the couch where I was laying. I sat down.

"Anthony, stop drinking!" Jace said, taking a beer can from the fridge. He took a seat right in front of me and I ignored him, opening the bottle and took a few sips.

"I still don't get why he's drinking." Beth said, laying on Steph's lap. I couldn't talk and I didn't want to talk.

She was right, why was I like this? I am fine. I know that she will come back. She has to come back.

I took another sip.

I can't be so down because of just that. There has to be another reason right? Why does it even matter? I always used to lose people and leave people and people leaving me and it never bothered me. Why now? Why her?

Whatever, it was her choice and I have to deal with it. I wish I could just go to her apartment and knock on her and she opens up to me with a smile, hug me and tell me she misses me and that she meant nothing she said. I've never been this emotional in my entire life and feeling like that makes me confused. Am I broken now? Is that what's called heartbreak? I giggled at my thoughts. So dramatic.

"Cameron is such an ass for whatever he did to them." I heard someone say and I wasn't so awake to know who did. But whoever it was, he was right. Cameron will pay for everything he did and Lindsay too but I am waiting to just get back on my feet. Setting me up with Lindsay to make Rose see me and leave me. It won't pass so easily.

Now that tomorrow is the last day of classes before the week off, I won't be able to see her anymore. I won't have to hide behind people to watch her without her seeing me, I won't walk behind her to make sure she gets to her exam on time, I won't just go to my classes so I could see her. It hurts seeing her smile when I'm not the one making her smile. I am jealous of whoever gets to hang out with her.

My phone rang and she was the first one that crossed my mind. Rose must be the one calling, who else would call me? I smiled and picked up.

"Hey, baby."

"Rose," I mumbled, sitting up to be able to talk to her. My pulse fastened and suddenly it was hard for me to breath.

"I'm not Rose." Whoever was on the phone said. I looked at the caller ID and when I saw Lindsay's name, I hung up.