ROSE

33. Shame

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"My dad is so extra, I know." He giggled.

"No, he was really nice. I really had fun and it was really nice to meet him." I said, hitting him playfully on his arm. Yesterday was a great day, when I thought it was a bad thing that Anthony was hidden and it ended up being the place where his father is, it made have so many emotions at one. Relief. Happiness. Hopefully. Excitement and maybe so much more that I couldn't figure out. Leaving from the center, I felt like I left his house. As much as I was scared about his statement and how he's react to see me with Anthony and how I was overthinking everything to the way to his room, made me be so happy when all what I thought about didn't happen.

Ben is a really nice that went through some difficult time that made him loose all control over himself and did some things that he is living its consequences right now. It is not at all wrong to fall and go the wrong way or do something that could destroy you and your family because there is always a second chance. There is always a way to survive. There is always a way to fix what you broke and bring yourself back up to keep walking.

Ben lost his child that he dreamed to have and because sadness took all his strength, he found himself digging deeper and deeper a dark hole that will kill him but his family was there to put him up from that whole but when they brought him up, he fell again. They brought him up again and it was then his turn to walk away from that hole after filling it back. That, doesn't make him a bad person. Anthony and his family are ashamed to show the world Ben's weakness but I didn't see a problem with it. Maybe, just maybe if they weren't so ashamed of him to put him in a center and tell everyone that he's dead, he'd feel better and be stronger with his family by his side and recover faster, but obviously I kept that to myself.

Also, what Ben said about how Anthony needs me and how he'd loose all hopes if he lost and how he wanted me to be by his side made me happy. Ben was the completely inverse of his wife, Elizabeth. It was like he loved her so much and she only loves her prestige and her image in front of everyone. He deserves better to be honest, but obviously I wasn't going to say that.

"I'm glad you two got along." He broke my line of thoughts, bringing my eyes to him. I nodded even when he wasn't looking.

"At least, one of your parents actually likes me." I joked.

"My mother will love you when I marry you one day." He looked at me with a smile and I was shocked from what just flew out of his mouth. Maybe it was just a word he said to make a joke but I took it way too serious that it showed on my face. "One day! Not today, calm down."

I gave him a small smile and pushed the thought away. He probably just didn't mean it or just said it as a joke. I huffed and cleared my throat waiting for him to get us to the college.

When he parked in front of the door, I saw people walking in with bags on their shoulder and books in their hands, other walking with their friends, laughing. Some just had their headphones on and their eyes glued to their phones, other were just riding their skateboards and others held these umbrellas that hid their faces because of the soft rain in Seattle. He slowly drove to the parking lot considering all the people walking in and out of college but we finally made it and found a place to park.

It was raining and I hated it. Why do I always have to walk in water that gets me wet? What is the purpose of the rain for humans?

I looked at him then mumbled a fast "let's go" then opened the door but he held my arm and pulled me back in the car.

"Wait, we still have time until your class." He said so I blinked and put my legs back in the car. "Close the door." I closed the door. He smiled widely.