ROSE

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A N T H O N Y
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"Rose!" I called, running behind her. I grabbed her upper arm but she turned around, without looking at me, she pushed me away yelling for me to let her go. My heart dropped and I looked at the girl that caused all of this behind me. I clenched my jaw when I saw her and Cameron smiling. Just then, I understood what was going on, but I have no time for them anymore. I had to go after Rose.

I ran to where I saw her rushing to and saw her taking the front door to leave the college. "Rose," I called one more time, not care who hears or who looks, my mind was only concerned with her. "Can you stop running and let me explain?" I yelled, grabbing her arm once again. This time I made sure she doesn't get to get away.

"Anthony, let go of me." She was crying. Without looking at her face, I could hear it in her voice, she is crying. Hell, she is, of course, she would be.

"Listen to me," I started a path I didn't know where it would take me. I had no words to say because I've never been through this situation before. I've never been so nervous, so careful. I've never cared about kissing anyone at any time, let alone having to explain that I did not kiss her, she kissed me. "Lindsay set it all up with Cameron so you'd get mad at me. I did not kiss her, Rose. She kissed me."

"And you let her."

"I didn't." I yelled in defense. "As soon as I realized what I was doing, I pulled right away. I would never do that to you." I was shaking, out of anger or out of fear, I wasn't sure. My brain wasn't working and I didn't know what to think.

She finally looked up at me. Her eyes were shining because of wetness it has from crying and the moon above our heads. It was about 05:00 P.M but the sun was already down. She kept staring into my eyes. We made up this habit that we always do when we are fighting or mad at each other or even happy. It was like our eyes were scanning each other to find the emotions and the feelings behind them. I let her do so because I had nothing to hide. Her eyes released the tears it held and it broke my heart.

No, don't cry. Please don't cry.

I blinked, wanting this whole scene to be a dream, a nightmare that isn't true and will just disappear. I will wake up from it. I wanted this whole thing to be a joke, a prank that will end up with her laughing at me for believing it and falling for it. But, it was not. This was reality and she saw me kissing Lindsay.

"Why?" She whined as more tears wet her cheeks. I gulped, not knowing what to do to make her stop. I hated seeing her so vulnerable, so weak, crying. I wanted to hug her and comfort her but I knew that me, out of all people, can't be the one to comfort her.

"No," I gulped again, trying to find the words. "You don't get to cry. I didn't do anything." I tried again. She looked away from my eyes and I prayed to God for her to look back at me, to look back in my eyes and tell me that I am right, that she isn't mad at me.

"You kissed...her." She softly said. I shook my head and took a step closer to her but she stepped back, frowning.

"I didn't kiss her, Rose. I pushed her away as soon as she kissed me." I tried again but she just looked away from me and slid her back against the wall of college and sat on the street, right next to the front door. I didn't care, I would take a seat next to her but I knew that it was better if we stood apart, I knew I would be so much weaker if I was closer to her. I looked down at her and my anger started to build inside of me. She placed her head in her arms and placed her forehead on her knees. I closed my eyes, running my fingers through my hair and pulling at the end of it. "That's why I don't love." I started. "That's why I don't do that shit. Because...as soon as I put all my love in someone, something odd appears and take everything away." I bit my lip, trying to hold myself back from doing anything that she won't like. I wanted to walk back in, beat Lindsay and Cameron to death for putting me in situations like this. It isn't the first time but the second to try to tear us apart.