Dangerous Mind

Rather Be

I thought numb was bad

I thought, I thought, I thought

No

No, no, no, no, it's not

Not compared to all of this

Not compared to this

Not compared to screaming in my head

I almost, almost, almost miss Numb

I almost miss it

I almost

Almost

Do I though?

Do I, do I?

Do I miss detached?

Would I rather be

Numb

Or

trembling spasming aching hurting needing wanting yearning desperate lonely terrified confused suppressing nonsensical afraid remembering imagining picturing lagging aching yearning trembling lying tired "fine"

Or

Numb?

Would I rather want pain

To convince myself I can still feel

Or

Because I'm supposed to, because they're yelling at me, because I need to?

Because, because, because

Would I rather speak monosyllabically because

I don't have anything else

Or

Because I'm afraid I'll cry if I let anything else out?

Numb, or spasming, aching, desperate?

Would I rather yearn silence or yearn pain?

Or don't they overlap?

Don't, don't, don't, don't leave me alone

Please

Please leave me alone

Don't leave me alone in the dark with nothing but insanity ripped into lines pretending to be nonsensical poetry

Please

Please leave me alone

Please, please, please, I don't

I don't want to

I don't

Please

I'd rather be numb

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