I thought numb was bad
I thought, I thought, I thought
No
No, no, no, no, it's not
Not compared to all of this
Not compared to this
Not compared to screaming in my head
I almost, almost, almost miss Numb
I almost miss it
I almost
Almost
Do I though?
Do I, do I?
Do I miss detached?
Would I rather be
Numb
Or
trembling spasming aching hurting needing wanting yearning desperate lonely terrified confused suppressing nonsensical afraid remembering imagining picturing lagging aching yearning trembling lying tired "fine"
Or
Numb?
Would I rather want pain
To convince myself I can still feel
Or
Because I'm supposed to, because they're yelling at me, because I need to?
Because, because, because
Would I rather speak monosyllabically because
I don't have anything else
Or
Because I'm afraid I'll cry if I let anything else out?
Numb, or spasming, aching, desperate?
Would I rather yearn silence or yearn pain?
Or don't they overlap?
Don't, don't, don't, don't leave me alone
Please
Please leave me alone
Don't leave me alone in the dark with nothing but insanity ripped into lines pretending to be nonsensical poetry
Please
Please leave me alone
Please, please, please, I don't
I don't want to
I don't
Please
I'd rather be numb
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Dangerous Mind
PoésieMy dark thoughts in the form of poems and short stories. Possible trigger warning, sorry. Current cover by @EveThePoet. Thanks :)