Dangerous Mind

Word-Based Poems (2)

8.) Fire (free verse)

The waves of self-hate
Burn through my stomach like a fire
Leaving guilt and nausea in their wake
The ashes rise to my brain
Imbued with regret and self-consciousness
I wonder how I could have let myself do this
The fire burns in my throat and behind my eyes
Screaming at me
Saying how could you
How could you
You know better than to do that
You should have stopped yourself
Why did you do it
Why did you do it
The fire sears my gut
Tells me to throw up
Because I messed up
I screwed up
And I shouldn't have eaten
Anything

9.) Run (free verse)

Confrontation
Uncertainty
Inability to understand,
to cope,
to function
Stranded on an island of not-knowing-what-to-do
Heart speeds up
lungs become shallow
muscles turn weak
And I run
Run away from the problem
from the uncertainty
Run off my island
Sink into a welcoming embrace
of hiding from confrontation
Draw into myself
register nothing
pretend none of it exists
And run
away
from everything