Diet / Why Don't We

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"I'm crying underwater so you don't hear a sound"
-Props & Mayhem

Jack

"Come on, Jack. Stop being so grumpy." Zach said stabbing his finger into Jack's cheek.

The boys were on their way for a photo shoot, Jack just wasn't having it. He barely slept and he didn't eat, he felt drained of energy.

"Zach, stop. Okay? You're being really annoying and it's really unnecessary." Jack said snapping on Zach.

Zach sunk down in his seat and just stopped talking. He mumbled a small 'sorry' and just continued the rest of his waiting time on his phone.

"Hey, look. I'm sorry" Jack said looking at the saddened Zach. "I shouldn't of called you annoying, you aren't annoying. I'm just being grumpy like you said." Jack said and got out of the truck, heading straight to the bathroom.

Jack looked at himself in the mirror, scaring himself at the sight. "Oh god, what's wrong with me?" He said to himself while looking at his fragile body.

He heavily sighed and began to slowly walk out of the bathroom. He said hi to everyone he past and found the boys.

"Where were you?" Daniel ask as he quickly jogged over to Jack. "Bathroom" he mumbled.

The blue eyed boy just stared at his friend. "Are you okay?" He asked Jack.

"Do you even care, Daniel?" Jack asked and just walked closer to Corbyn.

"Hey, Jackko" Corbyn said to the curly haired boy and placed his arm around Jack's shoulder. "Yo"

During the photo shoot, something seemed off about Jack. Something seemed more off. No one could figure it out, they wanted to say it's because he didn't sleep, but it was more than that.

"Hey, did you eat when we told you too?" Jonah asked, hoping for the wrong answer. "No, I didn't. I wasn't hungry" Jack replied walking away.

"Jack?" Jonah said latching his hand on Jack's forearm making him wince.

"What did you do to yourself, Jack?"

"N-nothing. Can we just go home" Jack said softly towards Jonah. He nodded in response.

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Jack loved taking showers. It was the one place where he could think and not feel crazy as music consumed his thoughts.

The shower was always the worst place for Jack fragile mind. He may love it, but in ways, his thinking got to deep and it made him feel worthless.

Jack closed his eyes and let the music takeover, blocking out the calming sound of the water.

He felt the hot tears rush down his face and his hands tremble with sadness as the song finished. He began crying.

That was one thing he liked, when he cried in the shower, none of the boys would hear him.

Jack looked down at his thighs and forearms, disgusted with himself. "I can't believe I did this" he said running his hands over the self harm marks, from the night before, that laid on his body.

"I relapsed" he thought to himself. He replayed his therapists words in his head. "It's okay to relapse" but it wasn't making himself feel better.

"What are the boys going to say" jack thought to himself and he worked up the courage to walk out of the bathtub.

He stood in the mirror with his towel wrapped around his waist. He looked at his sad complexion.

"I'm sorry, mom" was all Jack could choke out through his tears.

"I'm really sorry that you gave birth to a suicidal fuck up." He said collapsing onto the floor.

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