Dear Mom,

"we're forced to make you go"

dear mom.

even though i couldn't move,

even though i was basically hooked,

to this oxygen tank,

and felt like i was dying,

by every breath i took.

even though i wanted to sleep,

so badly,

and just die.

even though i'm alive,

while i'm facing the regrets,

that i've been faced with my life.

i wanted too,

so very badly,

just so very badly,

to run away.

i wanted to run away,

to you and daddy,

mommy.

i wanted to feel your arms,

and hear you guys,

say that it's fine,

and that this is all just a dream.

i wanted to be with you guys.

i want to feel you guys safety,

so very much right now.

i don't want to leave our house,

it's the only thing,

that i'm left with,

that holds everything that reminds me of you guys.

i can't leave you guys!

"i don't want to go."

i told the lady.

she was shock.

"i'm sorry ann,

but you have to go.

i'm really sorry,

but we're forced to take you there,

we can't have a child,

have to face the world alone,

and have to go through what us adults go through.

we just can't.

i'm so very sorry ann."

no.

"please don't-"

but she never let me finished.

she told me how eric and her,

would be taking me to the orphange,

right when i was released from the hospital.

mommy,

daddy,

i don't want to go.

love,

ann

scribbled all over hospital gown