Dear Mom,

nightmares

dear mom,

it's been a month,

since i wrote a letter to you.

it's funny mommy.

just really funny.

of how when something horrible occurs.

everyone is afraid.

i'm also afraid,

of another disaster to occur,

such as angie and marcus's death.

i'm afraid that somebody else,

that i love or care about,

will die again.

i told cedric that i would try and be happy,

but i just can't do it mommy.

i keep on being reminded of them,

everywhere i go.

i keep seeing them everywhere i go.

their in printed in my mind.

it won't go away mommy.

these nightmares of their deaths,

won't leave me.

mommy,

i can't handle this any longer.

the nightmares,

their so scary,

and depressing.

everytime i close my eyes,

or even think,

and drift off into sleep.

i'm right there,

waiting for them in the snow,

then i hear this loud clink,

i run over to the sound and find angie stuck in a bear trap,

and slowly she starts screaming,

screaming my name while blood drains from herself.

and just like that,

she dies.

i see marcus and he's running into the lake,

drowning,

as i try to save him,

there's this weight that stops me,

there's tape that closes my mouth from speaking.

mommy,

please,

please help me!

please stop the nightmares!

please stop this mommy!!

love,

ann

scribbled over the orphanage wall.