Dear Mom,

final days

dear mom,

am i 73 years old? i really can't remember mommy. the only thing i can remember or even feel right now is my lungs, they feel like they are closing up and starting to shrivel up.

henry drove me to the hospital, and as i'm in this room, breathing slowly, just feeling my lungs start to grovel up.

as cedric held my hand, and i saw henry and his girlfriend looking down at me, i gave them a silly smile.

"it's okay dear, mommy is going to be fine." i told them all, even though i saw henry starting to tear up, and cedric was already crying.

the doctors came in and they looked down at me, and as the heart beat scanner started to beat slowly, i smiled and as henry hugged me, i kissed his forehead.

"i love you henry. i love you so much honey. you were the greatest son a mother could ever possess. you were the light to my day, the sunshine to my morning. you're going to be such a great husband and father to your future children."

he looked at me and laughed a little."ma you have to quit thinking about having grandchildren."

i gave him a serious look before scoffing at my son. "henry you better have your girlfriend over here become your wife, and have her produce some grandchildren for me. i'm dying here, what if i died here today and i don't get to see any grandchildren?"

he sighed before laughing. "ma you're always so funny. you ain't going to die yet ma."

i felt bad mommy, he doesn't understand that today is my final day left in this world.

"alright son. i know you'll figure it out because you're a smart boy, and i'm so proud to have you in my life. i'm so proud that my boy is a smart boy and good boy. i'm so glad that i have a son who has a beautiful girlfriend."

his girlfriend smiled before hugging henry who was starting to tear up.

"i love you so much henry."

he hugged me before smiling sadly at me. "i love you too ma."

i then laughed and told him to go outside and talk to his girlfriend, she eventually got him to go outside even though he was begging for me not to leave him.

when he was gone, i looked at cedric who was sobbing and i smiled as my finger guided him over. he came over and i planted a small kiss on his cheek which was now starting to wrinkle up.

"cedric, oh my wonderful husband cedric. thank you for forcing me to get out of my shell an becoming my friend in middle school. thank you for all of those great memories, like when you watched over me when i went out with adam, or when you were worrying about my lungs when we were at the carnival.

thank you for being there with me all of these years.

thank you for loving me and never leaving my side.

thank you my darling cedric for being here even as i'm starting to pass away. even though i'm turning ugly, and wrinkly and old, thank you.

please cedric protect our boy from harms way, please love him till the very end of life, please don't leave him like how i'm leaving. please cedric.

i love you cedric."

he looked down at me and as the door open i see henry holding his girlfriends hand, while tears were dripping down his cheek.

"ma, you're going to have grandchildren, Chelsea she's pregnant."

i gave him a surprise smile and he told me how she was pregnant when they went out to their annual vacation.

i was so happy for him, and for his girlfriend. my heart scanner starting to beat slowly.

mommy, as i'm laying down here with needles stuck into me and doctors working on me.

i try my hardest not to cry, because i remember how you always said to me.
"don't cry darling, for you are bound for great things."

mommy, oh how you were right.

as my family surrounds me, and i see my beautiful sons face, his gorgeous girlfriends face and also my wonderful husbands face. i look up at the ceiling with a smile, as the heart scanner slowly decreases, and my eyes start closing.

even though i can hear my son screaming and crying, and my husband screaming out for me to stay as he's softly sobbing.

you were right mommy, i was bound for great things. and those great things were to live my life and to accept fate as it is, to experience love, to experience heartbreak, to experience life. you were right mommy.

thank you mommy and daddy. i'm finally coming to join you guys in heaven.

love,

ann

a quick thought before her eyes closed and the heart scanner stops.