Wasted

Chapter 28

*Louis' POV*

My thumb is drawing small circles on her thighs. She looking down at her feet and I stare at her, thinking about my conversation with Harry this morning. He's sick. He actually thinks that she means something to me.. I know that in normal circumstances I would already have hurt her and that it is taking me longer than usually but that doesn't mean anything. Right?

She's more worth it, I never had a virgin before and especially not one that looks this hot. And she doesn't even try. She's annoying as hell but she's no bad company. I mean she can be kind of funny sometimes.

Harry with his absurd talking. I mean I never gave a fuck about anyone except for Rosie and I regret that as hell so I promised myself I would never give a single fuck about another human being ever again. Humans are shit. Like you trust them, you kind of love them and then they let you fall, they break you. And I do that to other people too now, I know. But I want to let them see, let them feel how I felt back then. When nobody gave a fuck about me and still doesn't. It satisfies me to see that there are other people feeling the same as I did. And this time, with Maddy, it is a hundred times more worth it because she's so innocent. Nobody will ever understand how happy I was to find her this morning. I knew that everything was okay and that I could go on with my plan. Soon, when she gets even more attached to me I'll ruin her so damn hard that she'll be afraid to love again, just like me.

And thanks to Miley and her fucking Jackson I almost missed this date. And I have to admit I actually looked forward to it, kind of.

I have a new message. My phone is buzzing in my pocket but I daren't look. It's probably that Miley again and really the last thing I need is Maddy knowing about her and the deals, that could ruin everything.

"Aren't you going to look?" Maddy asks. Her green eyes stare asking into my blue ones.

"No, it isn't important."

"How'd you know?"

"Because you're right next to me and you're not texting me so it can't possibly be important."

Good one Louis.

She smiles, just like I knew she would. Her head rests against my shoulder for the rest of the ride to the cafe.

When we arrive Harry opens the door for his girl while I wait for Maddy to climb out the car herself. I'm no gentleman, never been, will never be.

As we walk inside I grab her small hand in mine and she softly squeezes it. Her green eyes scan the room and Harry walks us to a table for four. I sit down in front of Harry next to Maddy. We're official now so I have to behave like it.

A waiter asks our orders and brings them to the kitchen. The walls are painted in a color I don't even know the name of and the chairs we're sitting on are matching with the dark wooden table in we're sitting at. There are some pictures on the wall that I assume are from the owner of the place.

"This place looks like shit." I mumble but Harry heard me and he kicks my leg under the table. What was that for? I shoot him a deadly glare and Harry sits there smiling like nothing happened. The idiot. I remind myself that he's the only friend I have and keep myself for breaking his nose like I did with Zayn. The reminder of it makes me grin. Zayn is such a fucked up, he wanted to protect her, the poor boy, but she let him fall for me, just like she did with Liam. Maddy really cares about me. She needs me.

The waiter places our plates in front of us. And I can tell you, the place doesn't look half as awful as the food. We all finish our plate, Harry and Alison do all the talking while I keep staring at the girl next to me. She's quiet. Too quiet for me and I wonder what Harry told her when I wasn't there. He couldn't have possibly told her about my plan cause then she wouldn't be here anymore. About my deals with Jackson? Nah. He barely knows about it himself. Then why is this girl so quiet? Probably she's still in shock about finally having a boyfriend after her eighteen years of life.