Wasted

Chapter 23

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We start in Louis' POV!

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*Louis's POV*

I don't open the door for her, she's not a baby she can get in herself. We aren't more than friends yet anyway. The yet I added in my mind sounded so double. Like it brings me out of guard for a moment. I stand there, staring at my hand willing to open the door but my mind won't help it. I feel her green eyes burning on me from inside the car. I shake my head. Keep focussing. 'This is worth it.' I say to myself like I have to convince myself.

I get in the car, ignoring her frown and act like nothing is going on at all. Actually there isn't anything going on, I was just thinking, everyone has these moments.

"Are you okay?" She asks me, the dark curls spread over her shoulders and back.

"Yeah of course."

"You can talk about it if you want, everybody has those moments." She assures me on the kind way, the only way I've seen her so far. I wonder if I'll ever see another side of her, down, hungry, annoyed, over active, psycho, hyper, lazy, sad and even angry. I hope so. I hope she lets me close enough. I hope I can get into the circle around her slender body. I hope she lets me into her comfort-zone like all the other girls I played and used. Used because it satisfies me.

"I don't." I assure her. She doesn't believe me I can see it in the way she smiles, not saying a word.

"So.." I start another subject, enough about me. "How's your love life?" I ask her directly, not losing any time here.

"Single." She says, not looking at me. I pull out of the lot, my eyes reaching for her eyes every chance I get.

"For how long?" I ask.

"For like forever." She says, something cracking in her voice.

What?

She never had a boyfriend before? Like never? She's like eighteen!?

"I'm not the only one you know." She tries to defend herself, like she heard me thinking.

"Yes you are." I laugh. Her head turns again, to her small fingers on her knees now. "I was joking." I try. "I'm sorry a very shitty joke but hey nobody's perfect." Actually, now I think about it.. I never had a girlfriend either and I'm twenty. But with me it's different, I'm not planning on having one in the last seventy years of my life.

She smiles a little, her eyes searching for mine. "It's okay." She lies. At least she smiles.

"You're a shitty liar you know." I call her out and I regret it the second I do. She doesn't frown how I thought she would. "I know." She softly sighs, a small but real smile tugging at her lips. Her being a virgin changes things here, it makes me want her even more, it even more worth it.

"You know how I think about you."

"What?" She asks.

"I think you're different, I really like you Maddy and some day you'll realize we could have something fun." I focus on the road but I know how she's staring at me now.

"I mean.. We don't have to be official or something but if you want.. I mean the kiss meant something to both of us."

She doesn't answer me. "Maybe it doesn't feel that way to you yet but I know you want it, you need it."